upsidedown-

2010-01-10T09:16:00.000-08:00

最近想了很多。。。

突然之间我发觉作为独生女的我，必须清醒了。

清醒

2009-12-06T08:45:00.000-08:00

Perfect - Fairground Attraction

"It's got to be, purrrrrrfect."

I've decided to jote down whatever fun & great stuffs i've done through this precious 1mth of holidays. It shall also be a personal reminder for me to really try & enjoy this holidays to the fullest. MY. VERY. PRECIOUS. 30. DAYS. :) Hahaha i rly think it'll be damn damn damn dreadful when it's time to go back to sch. I think i've never found such a strong urge to enjoy the holidays before everythg is gone until i came to uni. I really felt more of the *Liberation!* feeling aft sem1 exams than Alevels. It wasn't because Alevels was easy or anythg, it's probably just the school life, hecticness and quick pace all jumbled up together for uni that made me yearn for a break SO MUCH. It's really Break, or Break. Hahah, or at least my neck and shoulders will if I don't get this Dec break okay.

K soooo far i've done:

Chilling aft last day of exams
Shoppinggg
Continue on my reading habit
Meetup w Che
Meetup w dearest 2/4 for XiaoLongBao Buffet (!!!!)
Volunteer work for Tulip Hearts Day w PyWahSteffiAmandaMingyaoChiaWeei (lol)

Next up:

LTB Steamboat
Smarties (:

All Over Again.

2009-10-19T08:48:00.003-07:00

can it get any worse?

the day actually began when i only had 1.5 hours of sleep last night.
i was chionging for my Tues presentation with my BGS group.
(DAMN LAME but i just got to knw that we are NOT presenting tmr because others volunteered to do it earlier moments ago. -.-)

TODAY:

:( - mood cranky

:( - got back FA mids early in the morning. FLUNKED IT LIKE ____.

:( - went to class for stats quiz, FLUNKED IT LIKE ____ AGAIN
when the qn wasnt difficult at all. was feeling too horrible before that & i panicked like usual...

:( - got back Stats mids after quiz. ultimate irony. i got full for my written & failed my MCQs. its qt absurd but MCQs are worth 4 mark each. and written has less percentage compared to MCQs? which explained why i did so badly. so, FLUNKED IT LIKE _____ AGAIN x 2.

:( - wasnt feeling well enough to go for CT meeting & now i dont know whats going on despite reading the email updates.

:( - STRESSED. feeling is qt sucky when everythg's cumulative unlike JC but my stupid JC mentality still stays... esp the hoverings between passing & failing. then i tried to calculate my results & stuffs. after today, im freaking faraway from my original goal of getting scholarship so i dont hv to pay for my sch fees.

im feeling esp horrible when i realised no matter how much hard work i put in for my finals, i might only be able to get a C or worse. the mids alr took up 30% for Stats. ohmy.
& since GPA is cumulative for the terms, im suiciding my other terms' GPA as well.
i might just screw up so much that its impossible for me to bridge the gap in later terms for my dear scholarship. )':

DESSERTS.
DESSERTS.
DESSERTS.

so... i guess i've only got one way out!
really work damn hard for my finals.
& really achieve the impossible for both my mods???
*doubts
*SERIOUS DOUBTS.

i can alr sense intense muggings ahead!

ah, but i hope i dont get too stressed out by then.

hvnt been feeling like that since a long time ago....
wht a horrible day right? :(
the :( feeling lingers.

sigh.

I SHALL NOT BE A LOSER,

RACHEL MUST GO ON! :)

2009-09-13T06:03:00.000-07:00

before i read a certain blog entry just a moment ago,
i felt my Sunday was horrible.
i had so many things on hand for me to do, for me to meet each & every deadline.
i gave Sixsy's Mugging Session a miss cause of all these.

things like:
Financial Accounting tutorial
Case Study 3
Study for FA Quiz tomorrow morning
Stats tutorial
LTB Stuffs
BaikHeart Stuffs

& then im left with 1 night after settling some.
i seriously wonder how am i going to finish everything by tomorrow.
yes i can, probably by burning midnight oil tonight.

my nose is also giving my problems these days because of the lift construction at my area.

but... whats all these compared to what she's going through?
aft reading her blog entry,
im very sure she is feeling much worse than me.

PLEASE TAKE CARE MY DEAR FRIEND.
I'LL ALWAYS BE THERE, ALRIGHT?
YOU'LL PULL THROUGH ALL THESE.
HOPEFULLY THGS WILL TURN BETTER SOON!

2009-09-04T09:29:00.000-07:00

emo post ahead.

Week 3.

never felt so busy with Sch Life before.
though it is a plus point i can wake up later than JC days on some days, but on most days i end up sleeping later than usual.

my happy perfect 3-day week became a 5-day week?!
soon it will evolve to 7-day week i think.
& im gg to sch for morning lesson on a freaking saturday.

I WANT TO GO JOGGING LAH.

sigh.

im hoping its Pre-MS but i doubt it is. ):
emoshitzzz.
i havent been seeing or even merely really talking (HTHT) to the close/best friends i've since..... SOLONGAGO.
i dont know if its the hectic sch life but i really dont feel the closeness with people anymore.
i feel like im a loner at times?
this lingering feeling started since uni i think...

smtimes i'll start to wonder if anyone will bother abt me when all of them get busy.
& i doubt anyone knows abt my nose issues as well...
or maybe its more like nobody is interested.
but i know i cant blame anyone.
because really, everyone has more impt stuffs on hand to deal with?

worse still, its a vice versa thg.
like how i dont knw much about others as well.
and i'll tend to feel bad tht i cant help my close friends whenever they're sad or need help.
i hope che is coping well with her sch & family now...
the weekly friday night meetings we wanted cldnt be realised anymore cause we're all too busy for sch work. :(

actually, me & huimin (smu) are gg through the same thgs in sch nw.
& then we'll emo abit tgt at times. sigh.
hi-bye frds & stuffs like tht are making us gloomy.

so as usual, whenever i talk to ong, the conversation stops halfway cause she's too busy to reply.
its qt scary to see how she doesnt even hv the time to reply SMSes or pick up calls. RLY HOPE SHE CAN SURVIVE THE YEARS.

its ONLY week 3.
gosh.

why did it all turned out this way?

OKKKKK, I CAN GET OVER THIS.

YES I CAN.

2009-08-08T00:53:00.000-07:00

im hooked.....

It's never enough to say I'm sorry
It's never enough to say I care
But I'm caught between what you wanted from me
And knowing that if I give that to you
I might just disappear

Nobody wins when everyone's losing

It's like one step forward and two steps back
No matter what I do you're always mad
And I, I can't change your mind
I know it's like trying to turn around on one way street
I can't give you what you want
And it's killing me
And I, I'm starting to see
Maybe we're not meant to be

It's never enough to say I love you
No, it's never enough to say I try
It's hard to believe
That's theres no way out for you and me
And it seems to be the story of our lives

Nobody wins when everyone's losing

It's like one step forward and two steps back
No matter what I do you're always mad
And I, I can't change your mind
I know it's like trying to turn around on a one way street
I can't give you what you want
And it's killing me
And I, I'm starting to see
Maybe we're not meant to be

There's still time to turn this around
You could building this up instead of tearing it down
But I keep thinking
Maybe it's too late

It's like one step forward and two steps back
No matter what I do you're always mad
And I, I can't change your mind
I know it's like trying to turn around on a one way street
I can't give you what you want
And it's killing me
And I, I finally see
Maybe we're not meant to be

It's like one step forward and two steps back
No matter what I do you're always mad
And I, baby I'm sorry to see
Maybe we're not meant to be

onto Not Meant To Be - Theory Of A Deadman. (!!!)
beautiful lyrics. :)

CANT WAIT FOR SLEEPOVER AT JK'S HSE W 2/4!
but aye, im still coughing away.
ITS BEEN SO LONG BUT THE COUGH IS DAMN PERSISTENT.
damnit.

ohyes...
im currently done w the bidding of modules for semester1.
dont knw if im lucky or what, i actually got all my bids successfully. LOL.
so im gna hv a 3 day week as i planned. (!!!!!!!)
wednesdays & fridays are currently free.
xiong days are monday and thurs.
esp monday, which i feel abit daunted abt. lol.
lessons start at 8.30, all the way till 3.15 with only 15mins break in btwn.
(screaming in my mind: THEN WHEN'S LUNCH RIGHT???)

hahah.
& im supposed to actually use the 15mins to move from accountancy sch to econs sch. NOT V NEAR LAH. -.-
this leaves me w....
getting ready all my cornflakes, lunchbox & snacks then. :)

i left the Caretalyst (CIP) Camp earlier cause of my worsening cough...
left on the 2nd night so i didnt get to go to the houses of the old folks to clean up & repaint their houses. but on the 2nd day we went to Charis, a studentcare centre for low family income kids...
the entire thg turned out qt funny.

we had to do up a modified version of Three Little Pigs skit to teach them the importance of saving up, recognizing their needs & wants...
so we started planning & distributing roles.
i became the straw house because everyone kind of agreed tht i had this nua vibe w me. (?!?!)

"ohyah, you look very strawy!"
"yes, you look like straw leh!"

RIGHT.
hahaha.

at Charis, other than the skit we went on w playing other games like Blow Wind Blow & Masak Masak Game with them.
i felt this Generation Gapzzz w them cause i really didnt knw what is Nintendo DS.
i've always thought Nintendo DS & PSP are the same thg.
and i got laughed at when i asked the kids what's DS. (....)

the little girls called me and huimin pretty jiejies ok.
whoosh. ;x

and Zhiwei/Keith (my facil) said if i werent wearing the caretalyst shirt,
i look like one of the kids there.
SHEESH.

we had to write our names on masking tape & paste it on our shirts.
& at the end of the day when we're leaving, the kids decided to paste theirs on my shirt.
so i had this collection of masking tape names.
SHALL POST THE PICS OF IT LATER (:

ah, despite all of these...
I. Dont. Want. To. Start. School.

2009-08-02T10:01:00.000-07:00

everytime i really feel like blogging, the font table doesnt come out.
& when i dont, it strangely appears.
its getting rly, rly irritating. -.-

ah, its been so long...
& i still cant get the fact into me tht uni's starting in a few week's time (!!!)
9 months of holidays gone just like tht!
i dont want to start sch... :(

21 Guns - Green Day
Do you know what's worth fighting for?
When it's not worth dying for?
Does it take your breath away
And you feel yourself suffocating?
Does the pain weigh out the pride?
And you look for a place to hide?
Did someone break your heart inside?
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky, you and I

When you're at the end of the road
And you lost all sense of control
And your thoughts have taken their toll
When your mind breaks the spirit of your soul
Your faith walks on broken glass
And the hangover doesn't pass
Nothing's ever built to last
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky, you and I

Did you try to live on your own
When you burned down the house and home?
Did you stand too close to the fire
Like a liar looking for forgiveness from a stone?
When it's time to live and let die
And you can't get another try
Something inside this heart has died
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky
One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky, you and I

SIGH.
through this pre-uni period i realised some stuffs...
smtimes when this whole university life thg gets to you,
there's just so many new thgs to cope w!

(and note: im still struggling to cope w the stuffs.
and getting myself used to SMU culture.
SIGHSIGHSIGH. :( )

& then you tend to just forget some other stuffs when yr mind gets clogged up w everythg else.
the scariest thg is tht sch hasnt even officially started.
its a gradual process, but the mind gets slowly occupied with new stuffs.
as much as you rly dont wish to forget the old.

it sounds like smth inevitable...

but tht doesnt mean im giving up!

so far, i've been seriously struggling to keep up w the SMU culture thou.
wah&i just felt like maybe both of us wld hv been so much happier in NTU or NUS.
but we did figured tht we ought to just look fwd & face everythg.
it'll be a pretty gd form of trng i feel...
LETS SURVIVE IT TGT BABE!

two camps down.
FTB & BONDUE.
FTB was great :)
Bondue was..... awful at times.
i just cldnt click w the ppl there. :(
one last camp to go for.
BUT IM DAMN SICK OF CAMPS ALR. -.-
i might just leave earlier w huimin. hahaha.

aft all these shit,
im thankful for the constants in my life. :)

i missed out on a few outings when i was sick last week.
DAMNIT LAH. :(
i randomly became a suspect of h1n1 but im almost fully recovered so its nt too bad.
just left with the cough tht doesnt seem to go away.....

im starting to wonder how's everyone doing!
cldnt manage to catch up w everyone w the busy schedule....
xian, huimin, cheryl, chloe, pu, sam, ven, poh, dog, sze, lx, dan, sj girls & the 2/4 guys...
i cant wait for national day sleepover. (!!!) :D

TMR IM FINALLY SEEING POLLYBAO & CHE. (: (: (:

2009-06-21T04:09:00.000-07:00

i think i ought to stop thinking abt awful thgs that happened/are happening.
i shld focus on all the gd thgs that happened/are happening.

im trying v hard!
but smtimes it doesnt work you knw.
smthgs..... are always deeply etched in yr mind, no?

FOCUS, RACHEL FOCUS.

to the special little one who's down with seasonal flu bug:
getwellsoon love! & you ass-woman, nvr reply me on msn. okaylah, someone's busy watching videos/shows again rgt. i want to see you with yr hygiene mask on. HAHAH. i hv a feeling the mask will cover more than half of yr tiny face... (:

2009-05-26T09:07:00.000-07:00

I'LL PULL MYSELF BACK UP.

people ard me, esp chloe & poh,

dont give up!

im hooked onto Boys Over Flowers.
the show cheers me up!
YiJung & GaEul.

aww....... (:

he's the reason im watching BOF.

1 year older! god.

2009-05-19T08:11:00.000-07:00

uh...

i don't rly know how to start this post off.
& it feels like im only posting sad, unhappy entries nowadays.
oh. god.
bet its dreadful reading how i drown myself in sorrows or smthg.
but the reason im still blogging nw is for me to rmb past stuffs & probably to update my friends abt my life anyw.

but today is terrible i guess?
to summarise,

#1 rating the seriousness.

1 - mild
5 - moderate
10 - severe

.
.
.
.

mine?
FREAKING 11 & 16 & 17.

GG.

#2 there's absolutely no immediate, permanent cure
(which kind soul can go & invent a cure for me?)

#3 at the age of 35, it might start to improve.
(hello, im 18 now.)

#4 many thgs tht i need to do to try to improve thgs & im supposed to be stucked with doing all tht ALL MY LIFE.

time? money?
i feel sad for my parents ok.
they hv to suffer w me.

#5 the ultimate, really.

ITS HEREDITARY.

RRRRRIGHT.
i'll be making others... suffer along with me.
this must be a big joke.

ok.
im nvr getting m___.

how i wish all the whinings and maybe... the typing of 10 sad faces will make the problem go away.

but it doesnt.

BULL.
i might just take down this post rly soon.
make it private.
it feels like im exclaiming a big crappy part of my life to the world out there.
so people, read while you can.

apart from all these, check this out.
my new fav!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8Bp13TeFNrw&feature=related

2009-05-07T08:25:00.000-07:00

ohmygod?

just when i was finally qt at peace with my screwed up A level results & feeling hopeful when i was invited for the NTU comm studies pre-admissions talk, everything comes crashing down again. :(

yesterday i received the NTU acceptance letter. i was secretly hoping its gg to be my first choice comm studies or smth. & i was still thinking at the back of my head "what if its comm studies, do i really like it so much to accept the offer, whether i was cut out for it at all..."

then i ended up with my third choice. right.

so... i was overwhelmed by shock for a while. and then the disappointment kinda came in. & the phrase "people tend to cherish things more when its gone." is damn apt nw.

i knw i ought to be happy because at least i secured a place in the uni and there are people out there trying hard to even get a place. but i cant seem to make myself feel better. esp aft today. i talked to my colleague & did more research on my third choice. & now im feeling v dreadful abt it.

relatively low interest level + competing with other maths olympiad winners + relatively less possible career paths= ...........

ong asked me then why did you even put it as one of yr choices in the first place?
i don't know.
nthg interests me a lot in the first place anyway.
but i had to come up with smth to fill up the choices at that point of time.

:(

then i started placing my hopes on NUS, refusing to believe "its the end".
i went to check my NUS choices again.
& i realised i screwed it up again.

biz
fos
fass
architecture
proj&facil mgt

so.
i didnt get called up for FOS interview at all.
the chance of me getting into biz is almost zilch.
im started to get really worried for myself ok.
if FASS reject me,
then what?

i feel like i just wasted my 4th choice putting architecture cause its not even easy to get in in the first place. & please dont ask me abt proj&facil mgt because i kinda... put it there for the sake of hving a 5th choice.

ok.
i sound like a big loser suddenly.

maybe i should go prepare to appeal or smth.
i don't know what i'll do if get rejected by the course i really want,
& get rejected for my appeal(s) too.
its like being driven to a dead end.

nvr felt this way in my life before.
all along i was spoilt for choices i guess.
pri sch, secondary sch, jc.
whenever we had to make choices for schs/subjects,
i nvr considered hard for all my choices.
it was always the first or the second which rly mattered.
and the third fourth and fifth choices were done up for the sake of not leaving them blank.

thinking back, i realised ever since the start of my JC life, everything just went downhill somehow.

AT THE END OF THE DAY,
ITS JUST MY FAULT FOR NOT STUDYING HARD ENOUGH.
i really think the D for chem made everything a lot worse.
SIGH.

i feel like being childish for a day.
i dont want to go to work tomorrow.

but a tiny part of me tells me to be more mature, cherish my job & all.
& not wait till its gone again.

2009-04-24T08:10:00.000-07:00

FRIDAY (!!!)

these few days had been... pretty average?

they certainly werent fantastic i guess.
work's mundane but im still rly thankful to get a job like this to last me till the end of June!
but tht also made me qt certain tht im not cut out for accountancy.
not tht i applied for it anyw...
or tht i can get into the course in the first place...

me & shunwei felt dreadful at the thought of continuing wht we're doing nw for the next.. 40 years?
okay maybe not 40years but i dont think we can even survive 1 year.
really.
it felt more like a joke to me for now.

:x

i will be qt contented to last till 30th june before i stop work.
but of course thgs may change in the future la.
uncertainties & possibilities are everywhere.

& my life...
there were gd times & bad times.
putting work aside,
i felt crappy on some days.
because of thgs tht happened.
& it was the first time out of 6++ years tht i snapped at my dear ong.

thinking back i rly dont knw wht happened to me tht day.
i didnt used to be someone who'll snap at people for reasons.
even if the reasons are valid...
i used to be the kind who'd keep quiet
& probably just stay glum to show tht im unhappy w the way thgs are.

and hey, its ong pei ying (!!!)
6 years & still gg.
thought this is pretty shocking news???
HMM.
BUT IM GLAD EVERYTHG'S ALRIGHT NW (: (:

LOVEYOUSTILLWOMAN :D

bad days came one aft another.
seriously...
lets not even talk abt the quarreling w parents part. -.-
screwed up stuffs.

& today it kinda struck me tht im the only child of my family.
i need to support my parents in the future.
i cannot afford to go to a course tht has poor career prospects.
BUT ITS NT LIKE I CAN AFFORD TO BE CHOOSEY.
sigh. :(

i think shunwei's right.
you cant hv the best of the both worlds.
i mean, you can when yr grades are great.
but its not happening to me as you can see.
interests VS money.

& the worst part is.
im not even accepted by any course yet.
damn?

okay, whtever i said makes me seem like a money-faced freak.
but i guess.... its quite real.

BUT OF COURSE,

there's little (smtimes huge) thgs tht make my day just that bit better.
like how ong nvr fails to be there for me. :D
like how me & shunwei chat so much abt random stuffs during work just to let the day go by fast.
like how sze always gets me 'high-ing' with her (LIBRARYYYYYY!)
like how the cleaner auntie told me to "jiayou!" in the early morning.
(SUPER RANDOMNESS)
like how the morning sky was beautiful today.
(& i asked jiankai to look up to see when he's on his way to tekong LOL anti-climax)
like how today's 2404 day!
like how i had several fun times w my current colleagues AKA py's jc friends.
(i got to knw them much better nw & lunchtime's always funny. we kept talking abt 2012 & death recently? ._. )
like how i've been talking more to a pri schmate DCJH nw & we're pretty much experiencing the same probs. feels like the gd old times. hahah. but it has been... almost 10years? (:
like how friends like paedophile are willing to do that bit more for me.
like how the books i've borrowed these days are really good. & give me the much-needed breaks from reality!

I LOVE SOPHIE KINSELLA'S CAN YOU KEEP A SECRET ALRIGHT.

& OKAY, THERE'S MANYMORE.

i think i really miss hanging out with che sam & ven.
it has been so long since i last saw them! :(
but at least che's working at tanjong pagar nw :D
& im getting to see the stjohn girls on 9th.

i realised im not even talking to my JC class nw?
um yeah.
other than the 3girls.
i miss cracking stupid jokes with sam then the 4 of us start laughing tgt! ohman.

on a random note,
i caught Fast&Furious4 ytd.
it was qt good i thought!
& then paedophile says its awful, other than the prettywomen, music, nice cars)
BUT ADDING THEM TGT MAKES IT A MOVIE ALR, NO?
(okay im biased. the handsome guy in there. PAUL WALKER. >:D)

(:

pray hard wednesday's interview goes well for me.
i shldnt brood too much over it.
aftall its still gd tht i try my best for it.

KEEP GOING, RACHEL.
DONT FALL. :(

2009-03-28T11:35:00.000-07:00

今天晚上有一点感伤...

我希望时间暂停下来, 停在这一瞬间.

2009-03-24T00:19:00.001-07:00

nose checkup today!

felt superrrrr weird when he inserted the damnit long tubing into my nose.
& like other doctors, he kept saying sorry when i said ouch (?!)
then he just kept inserting it further.

... the pulling out part was the worst.

2 mths later & im supposed to do some Skin Prick Test. (??)
sounds painful thou. HAHAH.

the funniest part of the day:
i realised i forgot/don't knw how to breathe through my nose alr. :(
everythg felt really unfamiliar when he sprayed smth bitter into my nose
and i can breathe through my nose at least for today.

unbelievable right?
how can i not knw how to breathe properly??
but yeah, it still feels weird nw tht im breathing (through my nose) & typing this entry.
smth like... i cant coordinate my breathing?
like i hv to pause for a while frm wht im doing & check if im able to breathe through my nose smoothly once in a while. :S

PS: 24/03/09 IS A DAY WHERE I CAN EAT & BREATHE AT THE SAME TIME DURING LUNCH. (:

(EDIT: 3 hrs passed... & i cant rly breathe through my nose as well alrdy.
JI DAN.)
HAPPINESS IS ALWAYS SHORTLIVED.

smtimes...
i want to be able to read yr mind.

2009-03-22T10:54:00.001-07:00

SHIT HAPPENS,

but life goes on.

2009-03-14T09:58:00.000-07:00

abit bored, abit sleepy.
but still feel like listening to some songs before i go to bed. (:

AWAKE

With every appearance by you, blinding my eyes,
I can hardly remember the last
time I felt like I do.

You're an angel disguised.
And you're lying real still,
But your heart beat is fast just like mine.
And the movie's long over,
That's three that have passed, one more's fine.

Will you stay awake for me?
I don't wanna miss anything
I don't wanna miss anything
I will share the air I breathe,
I'll give you my heart on a string,
I just don't wanna miss anything.

I'm trying real hard not to
shake. I'm biting my tongue,
But I'm feeling alive and with
every breathe that I take,
I feel like I've won.
You're my key to survival.

And if it's a hero you want,
I can save you.
Just stay here.
Your whispers are priceless.
Your breathe, it is dear.
So please stay near.
Will you stay awake for me?
I don't wanna miss anything
I don't wanna miss anything
I will share the air I breathe,
I'll give you my heart on a string,
I just don't wanna miss anything.

Say my name. I just want to hear you.
Say my name. So I know it's true.
You're changing me. You're changing me.
You showed me how to live.
So just say. So just say,

That you'll stay awake for me.
I don't wanna miss anything.
I don't wanna miss anything.
I will share the air I breathe,
I'll give you my heart on a string,
I just don't wanna miss anything

aww.
beautiful song (:
SECONDHAND SERENADE.
had a tiring day at NTU today...
& im still gna go visit NUS tmr with agogo.
dragonball movie on monday!
aha, hv this movie craving agn.

i hope my life turns for the better!
& i'll hv some clue on the uni courses tht im gg to apply for?
sigh.

im terrible, so terribly stupid tht i cant stand myself. -.-

2009-03-12T05:25:00.000-07:00

MARLEY&ME WAS GD. (:

yeah i woke up damn late today thinking it'll be yet another damn day where i'll be stucked at home thinking abt uni & results...

till deepen asked & off we go to watch the movie.
im dying to watch it la.
& i thought everyone ard me caught it alrdy...

so i was qt excited to start off the day. (!)

movie was heartwarming... (:
& i kept thinking abt how nice it'll be if im not afraid of dogs or cats since young.
plus, jennifer aniston is so pretty. & her dressing sense in the show. & THT CHIO TOTE BAG SHE CARRIED. DAMNIT. (!!)

had qt a nice walk home frm amkhub & strangely i felt better i think.
a break from all the uni stuffs tht i've been worried abt.
breathing in fresh-er air. hahaha.

I RLY HOPE ALL GOES WELL FOR MEEEEE.
although im still qt lost & aimless nw. :(

2009-03-11T07:10:00.000-07:00

whts wrong with me? :(

uni.
family.
______.

i feel so unhappy these days.

rachel. says:
i hope thgs will be better for us
Inez. says:
it will
Inez. says:
si si
Inez. says:
rmb
Inez. says:
everything happens for a reason
Inez. says:
i believe alot in tt
Inez. says:
hahaha
Inez. says:
:D

everythg happens for a reason...

2009-03-06T21:48:00.000-08:00

HOLYCRAP THURS&FRI.

but thinking back on thurs...

im so glad allmylovelies were there for me.

throughout the crappy day, i wasnt left alone to face thgs at all.

people like che, deep and at night, ong.

and yesterday...

smarties & pubao & pollybao & paedophile were all there for me.

i think there were more, but you all knw who you are. :)

my results?

i didnt do well...

but you cant expect someone who wasnt doing well in 2 years of jc to suddenly shoot up & get str As / Bs either rgt?

yesyes.

maybe its just tht my goals/expectations are too unrealistic to begin with.

but i knw i shldnt be whining abt this fact/ wallow in self pity anymore.

because: it is damn unconstructive. (so i shld rly think abt wht i can do nw to go uni)

because: there are really ppl worse off out there. (& its damn tsk for me to behave like this for so long)

i think its time to resurface this quote from:
The Curious Case Of Benjamin Button.
the movie which i thought was too long & draggy, but liked it actually.

“You can be as mad as a mad dog at the way things went, you can curse the fates, but when it comes to the end, you have to let go.”

yeah, i hope i really can achieve this.

for nw, i think i reached my greatest academic pitfall or whtever you call it la.
in terms of academics, life has always been smooth-sailing for me since young...
did pretty alright in both PSLE & O's.
so i guess the change of thgs in A's is probably smth i must learn to adapt to.

i think i'll need time...

but hey, on a random sidenote,
i think i still hate Donkeys you knw.
Damn Donkeys.
(!!!)

:/

2009-03-06T12:03:00.000-08:00

for nw, yesterday was the worst day of my life.

2009-03-04T07:57:00.000-08:00

:S

060309.

on a side note,
GROW HAIR, GROW.

2009-02-17T00:46:00.000-08:00

he refused to smile! & i styled his hair today for fun. ;x

he said he looked like a gorilla aft the random styling?

RIGHT.
CALLED ME A PIG WHEN I LAID ON THE FLOOR TO DOODLE WITH HIM.

OH-MY.

no, im not a pig.

started smiling when he saw wht i bought for him thou.

PICTURES OF AJ:

we went to hv brunch there aft the morning jog at yck stadium. (:

rmb all the fruits tht we used to eat tgt aft PE.

right che. right sam. right ven.

& the chee cheong fun tht i used to eat when i was sick/had no appetite. :)

the view tht i used to hv when i was stoning while eating in the canteen.

ohyeah, the j1s were hving orientation tht day. thts all the packed lunch.

rmbed mine was western food 2 years ago...

AWW. so nostalgic...

yeah. besides all of these, i hv been rotting at home. which is qt bad.

I NEED A JOB SOON!

(although we're gg for the facil briefing on friday... but its not an everyday job or wht. SOYEAH. i still want a proper job i guess.)

if nt i'll be increasingly getting used to slacking at home... ):

2009-02-12T00:49:00.000-08:00

I EXERCISED (AGAIN) (:

this time it was at the YCK Stadium.
damn proud of myself, at least for today.
HEH.
ran 8 rounds inclusive of the 2 warm up rounds.
just like the usual aj PE sessions.

although i stopped many times to walk.
although my heart rly ached for a while.
always had tht feeling when i pushed myself too hard aft a long break frm exercise anyw.

OHWELL.
im still glad i pulled through the 8rounds considering My Nose Condition.
YEP.

we decided to stop by AJ for a while aft tht. (:
we went over to look for MissTan
& realised she left AJ alrdy...
msged her just nw thou.

2207: just to let you all knw, she's working at Sg Youth Olympic Games Org Comm. (:

i hope all goes well tmr for the interview & i'll be on my way to a new temp job!
but i doubt it'll be enough. shorter working hours & all.
shall see how it goes (:

(ven: where are you! you disappeared for so long. busy with working?!)

heyman,
I HOPE YOU'RE NT KIDDING ME.

2009-02-10T02:15:00.000-08:00

I JUST EXERCISED.
-beams.

i enjoyed the "trying-hard-to-catch-my-breath" feeling all of a sudden. :D
although wht i did may sound miserable to ppl out there.
it's a gd start i guess! (che, go to the stadium soon k.)

wht i did:
jogging - 20mins
jumping jacks - 50.

+ warming up & cooling down exercises.

ALL INSIDE MY TINY HSE.

i ran round my hse like a dumbass for many many many rounds just to reach 20mins. & i wonder if i pissed my dad off by running around him when he's trying to take a nap.

HEH.

i rly hope i can maintain this for the many days to come.

2009-02-08T23:22:00.000-08:00

today i came across two quotes.

I would rather be the one getting robbed because at least it wasn't me who robbed.
I would rather be the one getting hurt because at least it wasn't me who hurt people.

So i would rather be the one being the joke because at least it wasn't me who was making jokes out of others and hurting their feelings.

AWW.
anyw, if Deepen does see this, nope. the last point isnt to you k. no worries. (:

& the second one, i read it frm the book i just bought. it's titled 'Just Friends'.

Lying is just a different way of telling the truth.

maybe?
maybe.

2009-02-08T00:01:00.000-08:00

i didnt realised the pictures tht i was abt to blog are still saved under drafts.
hopefully i'll be able to publish them today. (:
been damn long since im able to post picts on my blog anyw.

THE RANDOMS:

I MISS CALEB . ): haha. but he's back!

our workplace... (& snacks)

smth i did while eating snake during work. (FYI: its a man fishing)

CHIO SWEET.

THE PACKAGINGGGGG. ;)

ANOTHER FLAVOUR THT CHE BOUGHT. (:

MISS FAT LUKE TOO! (before you all think im mean, he calls me fatty too :D)

im feeling a little moody tonight...

many thoughts are running through my mind.

A's... work... (got "fired" agn so im hving a break)

______....

& _______...

& i realised i cldnt really recall many of the thgs tht i went through during Andss Days & probably AJ alrdy. felt like i shld hv blogged more of those stuffs at tht point of time.

ohwell.

all those uncertainities are killing me.

2009-02-01T04:37:00.000-08:00

suddenly just felt like blogging.
plus the font table finally appeared. HAH.

CNY this year was surprisingly okay...
don't dislike CNY season as much anymore.
its smth good i guess.
at least the cousins are interacting more. (:
even though we only meet up once or twice a year.
pathetic rightttt.

gna watch Jia You Xi Shi with Emily i thinkkkkk.
GU TIAN LE, HERE I COME. (: (: (:

been damn long since im able to post picts on my blog.
(i just blogged so much with picts & no, i still cant get the pictures published. asssssss. gg to do w/o them i think. wth.)

TODAY:

went over to MrsLim's hse to bai nian. (:
i was really really surprised tht she cld rmb most of our names & is still v much updated on our lives. lol. like how cap has a boyf damn long ago.. (?! how she knw)
i was stunned to see her dog staring at me when i walked past the gate.
& then i saw another one... wodetian.
SWEAR I DIDNT DARE TO SHOUT/PANICK IN CASE IT REALLY COMES OVER.
we're standing so damn near it alrdy la.
heaved a sigh of relief when we're in the hse. HAHAH.

one of the dogs has a name similar to me bytheway.
Im Rachel. It's Dasher.
if you say them fast enough, they do sound similar.
i looked at it for qt long & cld feel tht it does knw tht im scared of it. yet it didnt come over and stopped at a "safe distance" for me.
THANKFUL THANKFUL. (:

aft tht we went off for Mahjong Session at ong's hse!
WHOO.
i started my first mahjong game with money included.
suddenly it became more exciting & all.
(even though our bet is 10cts/20cts)
HEH. won $2.10 in the end.
learnt qt a lot abt all the tai's & different winning sets.

BUT I FORGOT TO TAP MY EZLINK WHEN I WENT OFF THE BUS.
& WE TOOK THE WRONG BUS WHILE WE'RE ON THE WAY TO ONGIE'S HSE FOR MJ.

UHHH.
conclusion is the value in my ezlink is depleting like siaoooooo. )': hahah.

YEAH.
LIKE THT LOR.

still feels comfortable ard 2/4 peeps. (; 6 yrs & gg!

(WORK: has been alright... cause i've been asked to help zubaidah & chaya out. which equates to being as far as possible from OldHag! HAHAH. friday was fun cause work was slacky. & we requested for HalfDayOff for shopping. had the chance to crap with all the other temps in the meeting room by ourselves while doing work. so i chatted with Sahmadi abt AJ & eyecandies. LOL. ended up *BEING FORCED* to hv a malay eyecandy. which im pretty sure you all knw who is it, lor. who else rightttt. i hope he doesnt see this if nt he'll probably kill me tmr. hahaha. I HOPE THIS PERIOD LAST LONGER SO I WONT HV TO FACE OLDHAG ANYTIME SOON. pray hard tht i wont be fired as well.... sigh.)

DAMNIT FREAKING OUT OVER A'S RESULTS THOU.
I WANT TIME TO STOP NW.
nowwwwwwww.
):

recently...
ifeellikeimexperiencingBigChanges.
dontknwifitsgdatall.
dontknwwherewillitleadmetothistime.
alittlesurprised,alittleworried.

2009-01-25T01:51:00.000-08:00

WE ARE REPORTING BACK TO WORK ON WED.

i think we must prepare myself for anythg tht might come our way.
like TheOldHag firing us on the spot agn cause she thought we're flirting with the guys.
HAHAH.

i found a really nice song.
everybody shld go listen to it! (:

黄义达 - 爱了才懂

雨落在没风的午后
雨停了气氛沉重
我们安静的听着心跳的节奏
谁都不开口

关于爱我们都不懂
向前走还是退后
试着找回当初那相爱的理由
全都是借口

相爱后我们才发现彼此不同
失去拥抱的冲动想放开手
相爱后我们才发现爱情过重
负荷不来的温柔渐渐失控

maybe i shld just take everythg as it comes.
hopefully i'll be happier this way.
i hope.

2009-01-23T09:19:00.000-08:00

OHMAN.

nw i find myself saying thgs tht friends i talk to don't knw how to reply to.
i don't knw how exactly to put this very idea across in words too.
do you ppl even understand wht im trying to say?

how?

am i suffering from the inability to express my feelings??
HAHAH.

(THE WORKING ISSUE IS NT RESOLVED YET FYI)

2009-01-22T22:19:00.000-08:00

HELLO WORLD,

I
JUST
GOT
FIRED.

I GOT FIRED BECAUSE IM A FREAKING WOMAN?!

.....

yes people, this is as unbelievable as it sounds.
i cant believe such a sexist still exists in this world.

WE WENT INTO THE OFFICE SO SUDDENLY.
& LEFT SO SUDDENLY AS WELL.
THERE WASNT ANY ADVANCE NOTICE AT ALL.

she wanted us to get out right away when we got the notice from her.
we were considered lucky to be able to get off at the usual 6pm cause msfong went to talk to her abt it.

IM PRETTY SURE THT IT HAS BEEN SO LONG SINCE I'VE EVER GOTTEN RLY ANGRY AT ANYBODY.
AND IT JUST HAD TO HAPPEN TODAY. ESPECIALLY WHEN ITS JUST RIGHT BEFORE THE NEWYEAR.

WTH.
TODAY'S ONE OF THE V FEW TIMES THT I HV ABSOLUTELY NO APPETITE FOR DINNER.

):

okayyy, i had my dinner alrdy but yeah.
i knw it has been rly long for me to be so mean&sarcastic to someone but i don't think i'll feel sorry abt it. at least for today, i wont be. she IS that bad anyw.

i swear we didnt slack off much and finished our accounts work on hand before finding the others to chat with. me&che rly cant find any valid reason for her to fire us just like tht. at this time where the company is in need of manpower.

considering how she flirted with the guys randomly & not knwing any of the girls' names even though its almost 2 weeks,

THE ONLY VALID REASON FOR HER TO COINCIDENTALLY FIRE ALL GIRLS WLD BE SMTH LIKE:
fa(1) hua(1) chi(1)

i almost wanted to scold my very first string of vulgarities at her.
but of course i didnt (:
don't think she's worth it.

just when we're getting closer with the rest of the temps & perm colleagues, we had to leave. although she said tht she'll call us back IF she needs us, i rly doubt it.

i think i'll miss everyone there. ):
old&new friends like jiankai, sahmadi, vithya (spelling?), deepen and futoon.
perm staffs like msfong, ruth, leslie, bubbles, zubaidah and all.

THANKFULLY,
we managed to take group photos tgt before we went off! :D
gna hv some RELC TEMP STAFF OUTING this sat. hahaha.

maybe wht i'll need is time.
thgs happened so suddenly tht i cldnt adapt to it. :/
will take it as another learning exp i guess.

i feel like i've just been on a wild rollercoaster ride this week.

2009-01-19T08:17:00.000-08:00

my hair feels & looks crappy to me nw.
i miss my long (relatively) hair suddenly. )':

hahah.
HATE HATE HATE OT.
but well, everythg will pay off in monetary terms i guess.
i can't wait to get my hands on my first pay.

(: (: (:

today while chatting during the mini *SELF-DECLARED* breaks during work, me&che felt so lost in life. somehow we fell into the category of ppl who doesnt hv any special talents (for eg, music) and doesnt do exceptionally well in academics either.

we've alrdy gone with the flow for 18years...
are we gg to continue doing so for Uni?

im reluctant to grow up, really.

the transition from JC to Uni is v challenging i feel. suddenly the BigThgs tht we experienced in JC seemed so insignificant as compared to the BiggerThgs we're facing nw. we're talking abt our life nw. our future and how we'll spend the many years to come.

& WE FINALLY CONCLUDED THT MONEY REALLY MAKES THE WORLD GOES ROUND.

the random chats with senior colleagues during lunch breaks open my mind to Life Out There gradually.

(Leslie looks like Potato! HAHAH. but he drinks like 5 big cups of coffee per day?!)

& i suddenly felt tht Life is so full of helplessness.
sometimes wht you end up doing may not be wht you like.
& for nw we'll always say tht "when i grow up, my career must be smthg i enjoy doing."
but it felt qt naive aft today.
because smtimes Life doesnt give you the choice to do so.

think abt all these:
responsibilities, family, and money.

BUT
IM NT GIVING UP YET,
I THINK.

2009-01-12T06:28:00.001-08:00

i cant help but feel everythg's so sudden. lol.

i was fretting over my jobless status all the time on friday, then jiankai managed to get me & cheryl into the company he's working in on saturday. & we had to rush to get all the proper working clothes & shoes on sunday.

so we started work today officially. :)

it was not too bad i guess! ALL FOR THE MONEY, YES. environment's qt friendly. toilet's clean (!! a v impt point. & there's qt a nice view of our surroundings from the glass windows of the toilet) plus the free sweets & biscuits. LOL.

bad points are like, there's only 1 food stall in the whole mini canteen. & its qt a distance from the office to the orchard shopping malls so we're stranded there for lunch actually. lol. milo was ultra diluted. mocha was ultra bitter, cause they ran out of sugar.

HAH. i think we experimented with all tht they hv in the pantry (spelling??) today. there was qt alot of admin tht we had to do at some point of time. then in btwn we really sat there & stone throughout cause the cheques werent ready for checking yet. so of course, we went to explore the place. lol.

i can foresee us taking picts in the toilet tgt if we get too bored with stoning.

oh, the feeling tht we've "settled down" with a proper job is (:
just hope nthg goes wrong & we wont be sick of the admin stuffs too soon.
im thankful tht i hv che to go to work and go home with.
plus we're also spending the whole day at work tgt.
smth like pair work? hahaha.

so... thanks jiankai for the job intro la! :D

IM REALLY SLEEPY NW.
ZZZ.

2009-01-09T08:51:00.000-08:00

my computer's qt fixed nw except for some random malfunctions here & there.
but its much better than it was.
at least the blogger's font table is back. :)

i spent the entire day at home today.
i don't knw why but im starting to feel anti-social.
maybe its because im still unemployed?
everythg ard me feels dull & nthg much interests me.

i wld love to go shopping but i'll start to feel guilty abt spending my dad's money when im nt earning a single cent. i've spent the 80bucks i got from tuition all away alrdy FYI. lol.

okayyyyyyyy.

im rly trying to think of all the gd times i've had with people ard me to refrain myself frm gg into the moody... mood. :/

I'LL BLOG AGN WHEN THGS START TO GET BETTER OR SMTH! (:

2008-12-02T08:35:00.000-08:00

hello.

its prom later on today but i cant sleep. gg to try to slp aft this entry i guess. i dont want dark eye circles though its qt obvious mine is due to my nose. so sleep / dont sleep doesnt really matter much. :(

i went to research on my nose operation if i were to do it. & i realise the most extreme case was when it caused that patient to be half paralysed?!?! i think somethg went wrong with the op so it kind of damaged the nerves near the nose i guess. smthg along tht line. then others commented on how bloody the whole process is on the forum i frequent. some said aft the op their nose kept bleeding every nw and then for two weeks. one needed a bucket to contain the blood. -.-

DAMN SCARY OKAY?

................................

anyw. i read pohsin's blog & i rmbed some v weird stuffs abt myself! i bet even smarties clique & the 2baos (pq & pollybao) dont knw abt it.

i used to think that barbie doll's hair can still be grown back to its original length so i went to cut it off when i was trying to style it. *and it nvr grew back agn*

rrrrrrrright.

ytd i was talking to shannon then i realised both of us used to play doctor VS patient game when we were young. trying to write MCs for my friends who were acting as patients then. i don't knw why i enjoy it so much actually. perhaps a sense of superiority while signing the MCs?! BUT IM EVEN MORE SURPRISED TO KNW THT GUYS PLAYED THT TOO. ;p

okay so its prom tmr. i don't wish to win the lucky draw or anythg in case i fall down on stage. TOUCHWOOD. THANKYOUVERYMUCH.

while looking at agogo's prom picts, i feel as if im looking at myself. 'cause we're sharing a prom dress! :) i feel happy thinking tht we've came up with an ingenious plan to save money. or is it? lol.

I HOPE ALL GOES WELL TMR.

how?

2008-11-28T08:48:00.000-08:00

hello. :)

i've finally settled about all for my prom stuffs. i cant wait for it to be over. so tht i can start on all the favourite thgs tht i'd want to do. whee.

anyway, me (or rather my computer) is suffering from this weird problem nw. i cant see new tags from all tagboards since sometime last week? the thg is i can tag at these boards and the tags appear but i dont see them anymore aft one day or smthg. ._.

on a random note, i've chopped off my long (not v) hair. lol. since monday? yes. before the haircut, i wanted a fresh look. so i opted for short hair. nw im opting for my long hair to be back. nt tht the haircut is really disastrous, just tht i kind of miss hving a ponytail. :/

我还在想我想通了吗.

2008-11-27T07:45:00.000-08:00

alright DAJIEDA, im koping this from you. :)

i read it briefly & i thought this is one of those few horoscope stuffs thts quite true! maybe its a coincidence but its quite true for me personally.

Sagittarius Child

A Sagittarius child will be very friendly from a very tender age itself. You will see him waving at people enthusiastically, wishing that they would love him for what he is. His small little heart will break from disappointment if someone doesn't wave back. (YES YES YES!) He will be like a small clown, who is jovial, pleasant and mischievous. A Sagittarius baby will never like being alone, even when he has to sleep. He will be the most comfortable amongst people who are talking, laughing and playing around. Infact, he loves to be around cheerful people.

If he is not given this kind of environment while growing up, he may turn a little cynical towards life. Most of the Sagittarian children start drawing away from family ties, as they grow older. Formality is something they cannot understand and honesty is something they will never lack in. Speaking plain, harsh truth is one of the basic personality traits of a Sagittarius child. You will have to remind him to tone down the brutality of the truth a bit. He has a very inquisitive mind and your every order must be backed by a sound, reasonable logic.

If you cannot do that, forget teaching him anything. Even if you try to do that, you get back defiance in the process. Never ever say a lie in front of your Sagittarius baby or you will make a dent in the respect he has for you. (i find myself hving a mental blacklist, & i'll uncontrollably blacklist those who lied, esp to me) If you are right, stand your ground and give him a reason for it. If you are wrong, accept it rather than telling a lie. He can easily know that you are not telling the truth. One thing you will find in excess in the characteristics profile of Sagittarian children is curiosity. The word 'Why?' will be there in almost all the sentences.

They wake up with a question in their mind and sleep with a query on their list. Shouting won't help; it is better to give them truthful, sometimes a little distorted, answers. A Sagittarian child will not do something just because that is the social norm. You will have to convince him with sound logic. If something is not helping him or adding to his welfare, you can be sure that he will never do it.

In his childhood, always be prepared with medicines, antiseptics and band-aids. He is prone to accidents and you will need them every now and then. (LOL! this is amazingly true, just look at me la. haha, i still need the plasters now. -.-'') He needs his freedom (i think i detest people for restricting me unless there's a valid reason behind it) and may go away from home earlier than the other kids. So, it's better to be prepared for the scenario. If you scold him on his ways, he may not come home even on weekends. However, if you try to understand his ways and show a little patience, he will return every other day, even bring his friends along and spend lots of time with you.

Romantic expeditions usually start early in case of Sagittarians and you may need to introduce them to the world of opposite sex much before other children. They are not too good with finances and you will have to teach them its importance the hard way. Don't fill their pockets when they spend the entire week's pocket money in a single day. Slowly, they will learn. A Sagittarian child is usually restless and you will have to keep him constantly involved in one thing or the other. Dull things will make him sad and disinterested.

Religion will interest him and he may become deeply involved in it. (uh, maybe not??) He will also be interested in roaming around the world and putting his idealism to work. A Sagittarian has to have a cause, without which he may become a lost puppy. He believes in the stars and their miraculous powers. He will never become too dependent on you, nor will he be totally detached. Let him see his dreams, run on the wet grass and wink at the girl next door. Just wave at him when he looks at you enthusiastically from far, he will surely come back to you again!

Sagittarius Woman

A Sagittarius woman lacks tact and her flat, on-the-face statements may make you feeling like running away from her. Then, suddenly, she will say something so charming that you will feel as if you are on the seventh heaven. There, you go again! You will be trapped in her charm once more. Once you have been enamored by a Sagittarius girl, you will be staying with her for a long time. She is pleasant, friendly, outspoken and very talkative (i think so? lol. i think when i keep quiet, tht wld most probably mean smthg has gone wrong, im upset, i feel uncomfortable with thgs or the day isnt smooth.) . Her forthrightness comes form the fact that she has no illusions about the world.

She sees it exactly as it is and says what she sees. At times, you may wish that she were not so honest. But then, she would be like any other girl, wouldn't she? In all probability, you will not like it. A Sagittarian female is very optimistic, but she is not irrational. She will judge the entire situation as per the facts, analyze its probable outcome and still believe that things will get better. Usually, she is very calm and composed. However, when you become rude to her or offend her, she may become like the fire-spitting dragon. (ya...! ;x)

Sagittarius women are quite independent and love their freedom. They are attached to their family, but not too much. If you want to get something done from a Sagittarian female, just ask her; don't order. She will never ever do it. She is your better half and don't you dare forget that. On the other hand, she doesn't want a sissy for a husband or boyfriend. (this is so damn true.) He has to be a real man, who has his ego and won't stand for nonsense. So, you will be expected to balance politeness with firmness.

I know it's difficult - but then, since when was winning someone easy. With a Sagittarius girl, you will never have to guess. She says what she thinks and how she acts shows what she feels. This bluntness may cost her heavily at times, even to the point of ending the relationship. Still, she would act as if she's not hurt at all and it is just one of the many harmless flirtations she's had. People will even believe all this, while inside she will be weeping and nursing her wounds. All this time, she will be analyzing what went wrong and when. (i think so...)

The word 'marriage' makes a Sagittarian female a little nervous and you will need to tempt her in order to make her settle down. She is a little hard to catch and tends to be one of the boys all the time. That doesn't mean she looks or acts like a man! Infact, she is as female as any other girl is. The society and its norms do not matter to her. She can never be the hypocrite that some people are and tend to wiggle a few tongues. Her honesty and brusqueness further add to the negative opinions. (yep.)

Don't be fooled by them. Look deep inside a Sagittarius female and you will find a woman who is so enthusiastic about life and who trusts easily. (yes, i think so! im like tht till i get ppl saying im qt naive. thou i still find it a point to trust people, esp friends ard me no matter how absurd thgs may sound. of course smtimes these include random pranks.) In fact, this extreme belief makes her heart vulnerable and defenseless. It gets broken too often, but then, she knows how to move on with life (i hope i can always manage to do this la). You will be tempted to care for her. It's natural. There are hardly any people who can resist the bright and charming disposition of a Sagittarius girl. She will not be too good with money and will most probably be on the extravagant side. (im trying hard not to be like this!)

She is very sentimental and emotional, though it seems otherwise. It's just that, where her feelings are concerned, she becomes too shy. After marriage, your house will always remain sparkling clean, (really???) even if you don't have a maid to do that. She cannot stand sloppiness, it doesn't appeal to her sensibilities. She may not be too good at cooking, but she will also not burn your egg every day. A Sagittarian girl may pass the most sarcastic comments when she is angry, but she will forget the resentment soon enough. (YEAH, i say nasty words when im angry. then the nxt day i think its nt a big deal anymore) Then, she won't understand why are you so upset.

As a mother, she will be very friendly with the kids. Infact, she will be more of a chum, than a mom. Only, you will have to teach them to take her bluntness with a pinch of salt. Apart from that, she will be wonderful and make them as independent as she is. She will be a lovely hostess to guests and make them feel at home. Just let her be what she is. Don't try to change her and don't curb her individuality. She will brighten your life with her optimism, boost you with loyalty, trust you blindly and shower her affection on you. She will encourage you to see dreams and help you in making them come true!

MOTHER??

NOTYET.

TODAY! :)

wonderful day i had. i spent it with the 2/4 ppl for a combined celebration of socks & my birthday. hahah.

i cant wait for agogo to upload the pictures tht we've taken. :D

i think some of you might feel its such a funny place to go for class outing but we went SG BOTANIC GARDENS!

lol. thankyou people! the smarties for the sandwiches & fingerfood. & the guys for the drinks & fried rice & chocolates. whoa. its one of the rare times tht the guys cooperated so readily right? i don't rmb anybody complaining either. but im sure the drinks aren't light lei. hahah.

THANKYOUS!

i think we started off the day lazily pigging with all the food. then played Articulate! :) jamesl was so bored tht he went to bang the tree with the ball. im still v amused... then played Scrabble. lol, right in the middle of many couples there. the fun came when we finally got sian-ed of lazing ard. so we started frisbee & i think jamesl came alive or smth. HAH.

SWEATED LIKE SHIT.

BUT IT FELT GOOD! :)

slacked & chatted in Island Creamery. AS USUAL. haha. the ApplePie icecream was nt bad! i feel the people there are earning a lot with the ice cream thou... whoa, i really didnt feel like gg home despite feeling sticky and smelly.

maybe its like wht panties said abt hving the heartwarming feeling when we hanged out with 2/4. it felt like nthg much has changed although 4 years has passed us. physically i think we've all changed la. but somehow aft not meeting each other for so long, thgs are still the same when we hv outings.

arkar & philip are still as entertaining.

chloe & philip are still bickering non-stop.

jamesl is still so enthusiastic abt playing some sporty games.

jiankai still get sunburnt (redness?) so easily. lolll.

zhongming is stil the lazy sleepy.. brother bear???

& of course the girls are still as gossipy. haha.

aww. :)

i hope thgs will stay this way even when the guys go to NS & the girls to uni.

imagine us in working attire when we meet nxt time, right huimin!

SHALL UPLOAD THE PHOTOS WHEN I GET THEM THEN!

2008-11-22T07:39:00.001-08:00

around this time of every year,
i wld be feeling like this.
i really hate it when i always try so hard to make sure i'd feel happy on ____.
i dont get why i hv to do all these anyw.

maybe its just a part of the growing up process.
such tht thgs aren't so simple anymore whereby one will feel genuinely happy with a mere lollipop on hand.
or maybe its just some random moodswing tht im hving now.

but i always wonder who will actually rmb __ ____?

PLUS THERE'S STILL THE STUPID PROM TO PREPARE FOR.

till now, i dont feel the 'high-ness' for it. & neither hv i gotten anythg ready to attend the dinner.
no dress, no shoes, no clutch, no nthg.
i said if i still cant find a dress tht im happy with, im nt gg to prom. i will forfeit the money we've paid for the dinner. then che said she's gg to take a knife to kill me. lol. thankyou woman. :)

so much so for life aft A's!
im quite certain i'd feel so much happier aft prom??

POSITIVE:
im gg for a haircut on monday! hahaha. i think im gg to have a small change in hairstyle. looking forward to a new change! :D
okay, its becasue of the stupid prom tht i cant change my hairstyle too much. zzz. in case i cant get it done for prom if i cut my hair too short or whtever la.

prom = sian. . .....

2008-11-19T07:53:00.000-08:00

i think im suffering from post-Alvls syndrome! :/

whenever i look at the time...
(for example its 11.50pm a moment ago)
i gasp & start thinking what work am i suppose to finish/revise by the night.

then 2 secs later, i finally realise A LVLS ARE OVER.

HAH.

it sounds rly dumb but i dont bear to throw away all my notes.
its still all over my hse.

._.

actually, i dont think i did well for Alvls really.
i think zs is right.
i rmbed saying smthg like what if alrdy knw tht we did badly for the exams & so we'll naturally worry abt it till march comes.

& he said smthg like by tht time we wld hv probably forgot how we've done for the papers anyw.

makes sense right? :)

i think i'll leave all the worries to maybe.. february?!
I'LL TRY MY BEST TO ENJOY MYSELF NW!
& STOP WORRYING!

*EDIT:
i think im missing anderson terribly again! (not jc)
they are currently hving some kind of random activity and it seems like its water games now?!?!

WE DONT EVEN HV THT IN OUR DAYS.
i sound reeeeally old right. lol.

i think i miss the environment there badly.
hahaha.
like how the fruit juice uncle & auntie always greeted us with bright smiles.
then because of the fact tht we've been drinking apple juice for 4 whole years.
they will always start with "ah girl, apple?"
although i think they added sugar or smthg to make them taste better,
it doesnt really matter aftall. :)

i miss mryong's jokes.
wonder if he does have a girlf already?? LOL.

i miss adjusting my messy pinafore!
& it was until the day where we wore our sec sch uniform to crash the j1 orientation then i realised i've grown out of it. the whole pinafore was so tight & short.

OKAY, IM GETTING BORED.
SMARTIES, LETS GO BK TO EAT LUNCH THERE ONE DAY K! :)

2008-11-14T04:48:00.000-08:00

although the chem mcq was quite screwed just nw......

IT JUST OCCURRED TO ME THT I'VE FINALLY GOT RID OF CHEM OUT OF MY LIFE!
FOREVER I THINK.

nt like i will want to take chem agn as a subj.

:D

abit sian tht my resistance/resistivity/unwillingness to face chem (forgot the exact word.) finally became better when im in the midst of Alvls. only in the midst of Alvls LOR.

i think miss soh is gg to kill me if she sees this,
but hey, surprisingly she knws abt my attitude towards chem
& we openly discussed abt it aft Prelims tht day.

HAH.

i wonder if Bell Curve can save me actually???

2008-11-12T08:04:00.000-08:00

(CANT STAND IT: MY BLOGGER IS DAMN SCREWED THAT I CANT EVEN CHANGE FONT/SIZE/COLOUR?)

alright, im left with 2 MCQ PPRS for Alvls. :D

i almost cldnt believe myself when i realise we've only spent 2 weeks on the exams. it felt like 1 year. (OKAY EXAGGERATION) but it was tht torturous la.

had econs ppr today.
wasnt good i guess.
but im amazed at myself for nt feeling as sad as i thought i wld be over it.

the only thg i can do nw is to pray hard for Bell Curve to do wonders. HAH.

butttt.
im kind of feeling the heart pinch for all the money spent on tuition.
i think i just busted every cent of it?
TO GOD KNOWS WHERE.

(self note: i'll earn it back as hard as i can aft A's alright. ONGIE SEE THIS & GET THE HINT! :B)

i forgot to use one diagram from each case study throughout the entire thg AGAIN.
i think alby will kill me if he see this, but the thg is he wont!

the big consolation for the j2s this year:
if all our papers are suddenly so tough, it'll be even tougher for those taking A's later than us right?
logically, yes.

HAHAH.
abit.. sadistic? ;x

anyw, i think im gg to buy the new book from Energy.
please dont think im some crazy boyband fan nw.
i just felt the song was motivational.
& personally feel kunda is qt cute right......

OKAY NO.
NOT SO CRAZY AT ALL.
LING LEI REN SHENG, PEOPLE.
LISTEN TO IT!

REPLIES REPLIES!:

er......
i dont even knw where to start.

szefong, eugene: THANKS! :D
juniorbao: hahah, JUNIORBAO SOUNDS GAY! anyw, dont sleep too much! althou i think this is happening to me too. :(
ruzi, sp: jiayou jiayou for the rest of the 2pprs! (anyw ruzi, your hair hao xiang nvr grow..... :x)
pris: i got yr heat shock treatment today. hahah, but like nt very effective for econs leh. HOW?! lol.
agogo: hello love! HOW'S YR A'S SO FAR?
tutu: is amk library yr second hse? hahaha. pollybao said she saw you there toooo.
che, ven, sam, pollybao: XIAOLONGBAO IS NEAR!!! HAHAHA. :D

to my dear ongie: thanks for pulling me up when im down! as always. 6 years & going on, baby! :D

2008-11-09T07:40:00.000-08:00

i think im in deep shit.
i mean, i am ALREADY in it nw.
zzz.

i kind of slacked the 2 days away.
& i feel so guilty abt it, thou there's probably nthg much i can do.
i slept a lot, as usual right?
damn nose i have. really.

i havent study physics but im waking up early tmr to do so.
hopefully tht'll be enough for ppr2.
& i pray tht whtever i've alrdy studied is still in my mind nw & for tmr.

i feel super insecure of the fact tht im skipping chapters for econs.
but since it's a choice i've alrdy made to focus on thgs i feel i'd be doing,
I SHALL PRAY HARD FOR THGS TO GO FINE!

I HOPE MKT FAILURE & STUFF LIKE THT TO COME OUT PLEASE. ;x

i feel like slapping myself for not 'waking up' till the last minute.
as usuaaaaaaaal, rachel.

I WILL DAMN IT LIBERATE MYSELF & PRETEND ITS POST A'S ON WEDNESDAY AFT MY BELOVED ECONS CASE STUDY! MWAHAHA.

2008-11-04T07:26:00.001-08:00

*WHINING IN PROGRESS.

my heart sank when i finished the GP paper. :(
it just felt like i did the worst essay ever since J2.
& i didnt even feel like reading it agn to check through because it was so lousy.
it was that lousy this time round.

it wasnt like previous times where i knew i wldnt do well but it wasnt a super major screw up or wht.
at least i gave some appropriate examples.
this time round i can really feel where i stand amongst the rest of the people in sch.
i felt disappointed in myself.

then i suddenly rmbed MissTay,
and how i feel she's a really nice gp teacher.
sucks when i didnt even rmb to do wht she've always taught us to take note of.

i forgot to do EV (v severely), forgot to keep my sentences short & clear,
PLUS I RLY HAD NO CONCRETE EXAMPLES TO BEGIN WITH.
zilch statistics.
I FORGOT TO USE ALL THE "NICE" EXPRESSIONS LIKE "ADVOCATES".
the whole essay was so simplistic tht i'd feel bored reading it.

......................................

so terrible....
& i wonder if i did NAQ for the qn.

"does the presence of a foreign power ever helps a country with problems?"

to think the night before i was so calm, hving the gut feeling tht media/globalisation/env topics would come out. then i can write a chio essay (compared to my usual ones) for A's to secure a B or wht.

then none of wht i've studied came out at all.
although i think its happening to the majority of the ppl in the sch too.

AND COMPRE JUST KILLED ME.
i feel really stupid when i make this kind of mistakes right in the Alvls.
other than the fact tht i cldnt comprehend the passage,
i actually wrote my answers for qns on the WRONG ans line.
ie. switched ans for 2 qns.

so thts 2 marks gone.
due to sheer blurness.

OPTIMISTIC VIEW:
IF EVERYONE SCREWS GP UP TGT LIKE ME
I'LL STILL HV SOME HOPE.

DAMN. AND ITS ONLY THE 2ND DAY OF THE EXAM. :/
im thankful i didnt have my usual mindblocks for maths today.
phy was a goner & im rly worried abt it too.
its supposedly my better sci & i cant possibly depend on chem for anythg.

I CANT FOCUS TO CONTINUE STUDYING ANYMORE.
BUT I DONT WISH TO DISAPPOINT ANYBODYYY.
HOW COME I FEEL LIKE I CANT GO ON ANYMORE?

anyway, randoms:
i feel rather sad tht i've morphed into someone so influenced and obsessed over grades. i mean yes its alright to care abt studies but i suddenly realise WHILE I WAS DOING THE DAMN A LVL PHY PPR tht i've changed alot these years. like how i always wanted to do thgs tht i'd rly enjoy doing & not because everyone is doing & so i shld follow. now you just feel like you hv to get tht A, or maybe 4As just because everyone else is getting tht. i'd rly feel afraid to be left out by the bulk of students of my age.

"i cannot afford to lag behind."

i think JC has changed me.
& i believe its the same for so many people out there right?

i dont like comparisons.
& i dont like this kind of me.

2008-11-02T03:00:00.000-08:00

TOMORROW.

i pray hard for GP to be manageable for me.
i pray for my absolute tyco-ness for comprehension to come to me just like the Prelims.
i pray for the 12 essay qns to at least be familiar to me.
(although i'll only be prepared for very few topics in the first place.)
i've alrdy striked out Arts Politics Medical Science & History qns. :/

ITS DUMB BUT I HOPE FOR LADY LUCK TO SHINE ON ME TMR.
HAH.

i was feeling stressed out aft econs tuition this morning seeing how i screwed up econs once again.
but my mum came back with..

a qian? (1)

i forgot whts the english name for it.
she went to the temple to pray for me alone!
& it was a zhong(1) deng(3) qian(1).

the pink slip wrote tht i shld nt worry too much. & thgs will eventually be alright.

I RLY HOPE SO.

i knw we shldnt believe these religious stuffs too much.
but nevertheless, its a form of encouragement anyway right?

WE MUST ALL HANG ON.

2008-11-01T19:19:00.000-07:00

just when its 2 days left to Alevels
when i look at the sky & the sun has set,
then i turn to my econs books.
four thick books.

& im suddenly speechless.
i've so much more to cover.
im technically speaking still at my first book.

no doubt there's the 2nd week to rmb.
no doubt tht if i start memorising nw,
i wont be able to rmb when nxt week comes.

but procrastination has to stop, right?
esp when its freaking 2 days to Alvls.
s.h.i.t ):

AYEEEEEE.
SUCKY DAY.
BECAUSE OF ECONS.

*EDIT:
IT RLY DOESNT HELP WHEN
THE PEOPLE DOWNSTAIRS ARE HVING THIS DEEPAVALI (NO OFFENCE) CELEBRATION DINNER.
THE MUSIC IS BOOMING.

& my brain is exploding soon.
GAH.

anyw people, smthg tht keeps me going on.
Energy's Ling Lei Ren Sheng.
i cldnt find their MV on youtube yet.
dno if you all wld go & listen to the song thou.

but the lyrics are meaningful!

LOVE! :)

另类人生

向西交通阻塞

我决定下车自己走

慢点还是会到的

向东又淋雨了

云散了人还湿透著

彩虹却浮现了

会累但很想冲

我好奇不停破关后

未来究竟多不同

会痛还能忍受

太倔强是好是坏呢

答案随时变动

ENERGY：

有人说要拼命加入热门人生才幸福

其实能找到爱的另类人生才被羡慕

为最爱的事物拿真心去付出

那快乐会胜过获得最贵的礼物

有人说赢得热门人生才满足

其实有更多美景在最少人去的山谷

为自己而投入不为了比胜负

我微笑学会了去未来有很多路

（是做梦？是太傻？已分不清楚）

阿弟：

会累但很想冲

我好奇不停破关后

未来究竟多不同

（你是不是跟我一样

在这星球上

渴望看见不会说谎的眼神）

会痛还能忍受

太倔强是好是坏呢

答案随时变动

ENERGY：

有人说要拼命加入热门人生才幸福

（有时候人长大了勇气却变小了）

其实能找到爱的另类人生才被羡慕

为最爱的事物拿真心去付出

那快乐会胜过获得最贵的礼物

有人说赢得热门人生才满足

其实有更多美景在最少人去的山谷

为自己而投入不为了比胜负

我微笑学会了去未来有很多路

（安静的天空我好清楚听见自己的声音

世界没有极限只有画地自限）

为自己而投入不为了比胜负

我微笑学会了去未来有很多路

坤达：你还在做梦吗？

阿弟：我微笑学会了

（不放手一搏你怎麼知道梦想不会实现？）

i think i found the video!

2008-10-30T23:48:00.000-07:00

ITS 3 DAYS TO ALVLS.

i feel v v unprepared (ESP FOR CHEM & ECONS)

but ah, wht can i do but mug nw?

i think i fell in love with MayDay! (:

the song tht made me fell in love with them was Ni Bu Shi Zhen Zheng De Kuai Le!

the MV was saddening. but its so real.

& i like Energy's Ling Lei Ren Sheng too.

CHEENA MUSIC MAKES MY DAY!

& i rly rly cant wait for aft A's. for me to do all tht i planned for. making the 8mths holiday a fulfilling one. ohwell. A's first.

im scared i cant meet my expectations.

im scared tht i wont be in the same uni (wht if i dont even get into one??) as my loves.

HOW?

the worst thg is how i feel so slackish.

because i've been coming online every single day. its just tht i dont sign into msn, thts all.

& here i am worrying abt my future when i dont even put the time i hv into good use. :(

i feel like a piece of lard.

rotting at home.

OKAY, PIECE OF LARD, FOCUS!

i pray for GP ppr to be more manageable for a cheena woman like me.

OKAY, i pray for every ppr to be manageable for me. zzz.

MUG HARD LARD!

2008-10-24T09:54:00.000-07:00

:(
because of some family stuffs.

anyw, i've decided to abandon my desire to go Taiwan.
Taiwan? BigDeal.
Taiwan is a want.
Its not a need aftall.
Singapore will be just fine for me.

JIAYOU RACHELTAN.
RMB HW YR DAD SLOGS HARD FOR YOU.

ALVLS ALVLS ALVLS ARE SO NEAR.

thankyou peewoman, for being always here. (:
i'll reply the tags another time!

2008-10-15T05:02:00.000-07:00

MY CLOSEST 3 IN THE CLASS!

ONE VERY ANCIENT BUT NICE PHOTO.

A LVLS ARE COMING. MYGOD.

SAVE ME!
& MY CHEM.

anyways, i had a good dream today. wanted to go back into it so badly tht i went back to try to slp aft i woke up. or maybe i was just escaping frm the fact tht im supposed to mug?

GOOD DREAM STILL!

(i dreamt tht i had this imaginary boyf. & NO! his face is not a question mark this time. but i've never seen him before? or maybe i'll meet him in the future? LOL.)

RACHEL IS CRAZY FROM MUGGING.

i cant wait for A's to be over, but i dont want it to come either. :(

I SOOO THINK IM GG TO SCREW EVERYTHG UP.
ESP WHEN CHEM & ECONS ARE ON THE SAME DAY.

WTH.

replies:

ruzi: i love eddie! :) jiayou in mugging if you do see this.

juniorbao: OIE BAO. how are you? :D

pris: im sure you're so happy tht you succeeded in scaring me on the second last day of sch. ANYW, i'll try to get an Ant for chem alright! i dont want an Umbrella. -.-''

lixiang: :D seeyou on thurs!

ven: i will go thru radioactive fission soon. *EXPLODES*

che: :D! thks for scanning thgs for me these 2 years. zomg. time flies right.

sl: :D you didnt change at all tutu! meet aft As!

sf: i kind of miss ppl calling me rachie! :D jiayou for A's too! meet aft tht k.

special note to miss samantha: ehhh, im rly scared of yr dear doggie (oggie) la. KEEP NXT TIME LEH! PRETTY PLEASE? :D

2008-10-07T08:26:00.000-07:00

a song tht im hooked onto:

the lyrics are v beautiful! esp the parts in bold.

歌曲：猜不透
歌手：丁当
专辑：我爱上的
猜不透
你最近是好是坏的沉默
我也不想去追问太多
但是他为彼此的戏上了锁

猜不透
相处会比分开还寂寞
两个人都只是得过且过
无法感受每次触摸
是真的是热的
如果乎远乎近的洒脱是你要的自由
那我宁愿回到一个人生活
如果乎冷乎热的温柔是你的借口
那我宁愿对你从没认真过

猜不透
相处会比分开还寂寞
两个人都只是得过且过
无法感受每次触摸
是真的是热的
如果乎远乎近的洒脱是你要的自由
那我宁愿回到一个人生活
如果乎冷乎热的温柔是你的借口
那我宁愿对你从没认真过
如果乎远乎近的洒脱是你要的自由
那我宁愿回到一个人生活
如果乎冷乎热的温柔是你的借口
那我宁愿对你从没认真过
到底这感觉谁对谁错
我已经不想追求
越是在乎的人越是猜不透

yaya, i knw A's are coming. its so damn near tht it freaks me (& i believe most) out. im sooooooooo terribly unprepared for chem tht i dont knw wht to do to help myself anymore. sigh.

suddenly aft wht we talked abt today.......
i wonder if my study methods are effective enough?

so frustrating! ._.
i still wonder how mr.mouse can study so effectively. must learn frm him! aftall i realise our lifestyles are similar, in a bad way.

CAN BUDDHA POPI ME. )':

anyw, LI SIR DIED????
i think im emo nemo because of this.
dno wht crap is this.
(im referring to the 10pm show)

ONCE AGAIN,
RACHEL TAN PLEASE BUCK UP!

2008-10-02T09:10:00.000-07:00

ONE YEAR AGO..

i thought J1 year was the worst in my entire life tht i've ever been thru.
i thought Promos was damn difficult.
i was amazed at hw my classmates could get those ridiculously high grades for J1.

but i nvr knew how bad thgs could possibly get for J2.

suddenly i realise im promoted.
suddenly i realise im in J2.
suddenly i realise midyears are over
suddenly Prelims are also over.

then suddenly, its 30days left to Alvls??????

TIME FLIES.

(& i think the pre-exam stress is getting into me. ): )

i felt like i just wasted a day away. 2nd of oct tht is. :/
today's gp ppr was horrible in the sense tht i cldnt do the ppr because i was just mentally drained to the extent tht i fell asleep while doing. no doubt tht the pprs were hard in the first place thou. but just felt tht i cld rly do much better if i wasnt so tired then. gah. then i figured out (took me qt a long time) tht im just one tht needs a lot of slp to "function" efficiently.

so for the rest of the 30days,
im gg to limit myself to rest more at home & nt go out.
I'LL BE A ZAI NV!
nt tht i'll be mugging all day at home or wht but just to get enough rest.
i hv a feeling its partly because of my nose condition but thts hw it is la.
if only i can be "healthier" so tht i wont feel so sleepy always rgt?

LIFE DOESNT ALWAYS GO SMOOTHLY, RACH.
SO I MUST BUCK UP!

FREAKING 30DAYS LEFTTT!
RESIST THE INERTIA.!

i hate the inertia thts getting into me. >:
ironically im blogging more when we're getting closer to the Big A's.

2008-10-01T09:19:00.000-07:00

YAWNS.

i feel like slping.
wonder why the world doesnt hv a subject like The Art Of Sleeping or smthg along tht line?

i think i will ace it. :)

......................

SRY, IM TOO SLEEPY.
lol.

my momentum nvr seems to be here yet.
1mth to A's.
mv = 0!
no conservation of momentum AT ALL!
O_O

WHY?

http://www.imeem.com/neyo/music/La3m_NRF/neyo_miss_independent/

anyw, a nice song.
Miss Independent by Neyo.
i think its nice.
considering tht i dont rly listen to a lot of english songs nowadays,
it must be rly good to attract me to it.

zZZ

HAPPY BIRTHDAY VENN DIAGRAM! :)

2008-09-21T07:43:00.000-07:00

aft ven asked,

i realise im gg to hv 7 hrs of econs tmr.

1hr tutorial
3hr aft lecture
2 hr (external) tuition

MADNESS.
I DECLARE TMR ECONS DAY.

TAG REPLIES:

sp: hahah. i read abt yr 14hr study plan. ou xiang! : p
ven: i subconsciously gave up too. lol. :/ i was watching koizora today!
cheryl: i feel like a prisoner. =.= fluffy is damn cute alright!
ruzi: omg ruzi, im failing subjectssssssss. hahah. i've been failing chem i realised. since J1. damnit. ._. (i hope i dont sound too happy abt it because im nt) which song de video?

2008-09-20T05:43:00.000-07:00

REMINDER TO SELF:
preorder JayChou's album on 24th Sept!

prelims wasnt gd.
im pinning my hopes on Phy though im worried it'll disappoint me too, aft hearing wht tht ____ said. (shan't name names here in case.... yes.)

im still failing stuffs. :(

& Alvls is rly near.
GAH. this is v frustrating.
wonder wht will happen to me if i don't do well at all.

hearing wht TheGay said ytd abt studies makes me more worried.
i just get this im-lagging-behind-by-alot feeling.
when he's alrdy thinking abt scholarships. lol.
im glad tht he's doing well thou.

but ironically, i behave like its life aft Alvls when its only the life aft Prelims nw.

._.

FOCUS, RACHEL, FOCUS!

2008-08-29T08:13:00.000-07:00

:(

only 2 papers down,
& im feeling miserable.

im nt surprised if i do worse than mids.
which is totally shitty.

GAH.

i screwed up the ppr tht i've most hopes in improving for.

(& i rly wonder if its everyone thts screwed for the ppr, or only me. because half the time, those ppl who whine get relatively decent grades in the end. im nt naming anybody, because i find this happening everywhere. then im the only one thts feels screwed up & gets the screwed up grades. WHT A STUPID LIFE IM LEADING.)

emoooooooo. ;/

READ AT YR OWN RISK:

(i feel like grumbling more. sigh. so auntie rgt!)

i think im damn pissed at myself and wht not.
i reeeeeeeeeeeally (you get the pt) hate nt doing well for pprs tht i've tuition for because im nt rich & for my dad to spend so much money (accumulates each mth) on my studies means tht i ought to do well for it. so tht the money will nt go to waste.

THEN I DNO WTH AM I DOING TO WASTE EVERY SINGLE CENT OF IT.

..................

i freaking want to do well for econs.
but i think i've been saying the "its okay, the nxt time will definitely get better" thg for so many times tht im numbed by everythg. :(

-takes a deep breath-

GD STUFFS:
at least i get to meet Smarties today.
Marks & Spencering was fun, as usual agogo. :)

& erm, thts probably the end.

say W-O-W with me.

2008-08-24T06:09:00.000-07:00

ITS THE OLYMPICS BBALL FINALS TODAY.
HOW CLD I POSSIBLY MISS IT RGT.

USA WON! :D

dwight howard: the guy who has the same birthday as me! :) :)

carmelo anthony: I THINK HE'S DAMN FUNNY!

chris bosh: MY IDOL. YES. (although zs wont be here, but its rly nt because he's handsome/tall/muscular or wht la. he laughed at me just nw. zzz. i like him for his character! :) )

he's a philanthropist!

(from wikipedia: Off the court, Bosh is noted for his philanthropy and active community service. In recognition of his own childhood experience, Bosh set up the Chris Bosh Foundation to help promote sports and education amongst youths in Dallas and Toronto, and regularly speaks to youths about the benefits of reading.)

kobe bryant: funny pose. :D

LEBRON JAMES! LOL.

this is for cheryl. (;

oh by the way, this is chris bosh's blog. :D

http://www.chris-bosh.com/component/option,com_frontpage/Itemid,1/

& a very very very funny self-made video by him. LOL.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l05R9BuyIug

PRELIMS
PRELIMS
PRELIMS.
FOCUS RACHEL.
FOCUS!

2008-08-23T05:07:00.000-07:00

GOING, GOING, GONE.

i desperately need to focus.
GAH.

BUT I JUST CANT.
zzz.

today wasnt so gd because the neighbour (living above my floor) irritates me to the core.
i almost went up to scold them k.
considering the fact tht i dont usually fa pi qi at ppl anyhow,
they have definitely did a gd job pissing me off.

lol.

the kids (above) likes to play with the freaking marbles?!

& ya, bounce it on the floor.

I PROCLAIM MARBLE AS A DEMERIT GD FOR TODAY.

BECAUSE IT GENERATES NEGATIVE EXTERNALITY IN THE FORM OF NOISE POLLUTION TO NEARBY NEIGHBOURS.

*cough* ME.

:X

%*(#%*#)*$(@)

but of course, i didnt la.
imagine rachel scolding her neighbour. :/

I CANT SEEM TO WAKE UP.
PRELIMS IS SO NEAR & I DNO WTH AM I ACTUALLY DOING.

HELP!

2008-08-20T09:43:00.000-07:00

CAN ANYBODY TELL ME WHEN IS THE USA BBALL MATCHES?

i thought it was today(wednesday) at 12am.
& i was so looking forward to it.

THEN IT BECAME LITHUANIA VS CHINA.

..............

TOTAL BULLLLLL.

i want to watch lebron james!

(i still cant believe he's only 22.)
(i hv the same birthday as dwight howard! okayyyyyy, there's nthg much to be happy abt. lol. i dno why im so excited for. he look like "mr.nice guy" though)

& right, prelims are seriously near.
like nxt week.
k, im so unprepared.
worse than mids.

(er, the fonts & sizes are kind of screwed)

2008-08-13T09:24:00.000-07:00

okay, i knw its nt the time to edit blogs & all.
but i screwed up mine somehow
& i rly cant stand the mess.

didnt go to sch today.
had a gd rest

BUT WITH LOTS OF UNDONE WORKKK.

JIAYOU! :)

2008-07-26T09:02:00.000-07:00

aaaah.
i went to visit lixiang's blog & the crave for S Club 7 songs seemed to be back agn.
anyw, this is the song tht i've listened to.

HAVE YOU EVER:

Sometimes it's wrong to walk away,
though you think it's over
Knowing there's so much more to say
Suddenly the moment's gone
And all your dreams are upside down
And you just wanna change the way the world goes round

Tell me, have you ever loved and lost somebody
Wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry
Can't you see, that's the way I feel about you and me, Baby
Have you ever felt your heart was breaking
Lookin down the road you should be taking
I should know, cos I loved and lost the day I let you go

Can't help but think that this is wrong,
we should be together
Back in your arms where I belong
Now I've finally realised it was forever that I've found
I'd give it all to change the way the world goes round

Tell me, have you ever loved and lost somebody
Wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry
Can't you see, that's the way I feel about you and me, Baby
Have you ever felt your heart was breaking
Lookin down the road you should be taking
I should know, cos I loved and lost the day I let you go
I really wanna hear you say that you know just how it feels
To have it all and let it slip away, can't you see
Even though the moment's gone,
I'm still holding on somehow
Wishing I could change the way the world goes round

Tell me, have you ever loved and lost somebody
Wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry (I'm sorry)
Can't you see, (ohhh) that's the way I feel about you and me, Baby
Have you ever felt your heart was breaking
Lookin down the road you should be takingI should know, (I should know)
cos I loved and lost the day I let
Yes I loved and lost the day I let
Yes I loved and lost the day I let you go

thought i wasnt as productive as i hoped to be today and ytd.
though i did replenish my lost sleep la. :/

.
.
.
.
.
.

aft all these,
im left with
.
.
.
.

ONE ECONS ESSAY
& ONE ECONS CHAPT

TO GO.

and my only entertainment is nail polish.

HOW PATHETICCCCC. -.-

GOOD GAME, RACHEL.

2008-07-23T08:07:00.000-07:00

i finally realised why im a Saggi.
because i rly dislike people who dont give me the chance to voice my opinion
abt stuffs related to myself.

TSK.

im qt relieved i didnt gt into the APTS (?) thg.
BUT THT ALSO MEANS I RLY HV TO BUCK UP!

:(

STUDY.
STUDY.
STUDY.

2008-07-18T23:57:00.000-07:00

today i was woken up when my dad played titanic on the dvd player.

at first i was feeling qt bored since i thought i watched it for many many times alrdy.
but the jack&rose scene aft they fell into the water never fails to glue me to the tv laa.

but aft the whole show,
i just felt like life is very fragile.
and one only has so much time on earth,
so i rly dno why im working so hard and being so unhappy abt studies for?

suddenly felt very lost.

hahah. no, im nt very sad. just un-happy.
if you get wht i mean.

OKAY.
BACK TO REALITY.

the homework is never-ending.
really.
& smtimes i wonder whether it'll be better if the teachers leave ourselves to mug for exams and probably give a little homework along the way.

i find myself wasting time during lectures la.
everyone else around me didnt hv the time to prepare for the qns.
so all we do is to either copy down the ans, or stone, or slp.
so unproductive rgt!

hahah.
i sound so much like a nerd nw. 8D

we had a timed prac on friday aft sch.
i think i screwed up the paper.
but it was just a prac la.

then it dawned on me tht my phobia for maths is still nt overcomed.
(probably except the stats part)
but when i read the first few lines of complex no. qn,
i totally forgot abt the formulas tht i learned.
then i had to ask cheryl for formulas.

GT TO DO SMTHG ABT IT SOON MAN.
(wahlao, zhang zhe me da di yi ci hv phobia for subjects? ._.)

aft this post i'll need to:
pack my stuff so samantha & alby will hv space tmr. HAHAH.
off to amk central to buy necessities.
phy tuition. (reminder to self: collect cheryl's top frm lx.)
prepare for econs tuition tmr.

& TO OVERCOME MY PHOBIA.
OH GOD.

ohwell, jc life sucks.

misstan talked to my dad ytd alrdy.
am still disappointed abt my little progress/no progress.
but felt glad tht misstan encouraged me! :)
& the fact tht my dad didnt blurt out anythg abt xuchunmei.
she's horrible.

we got back a UNMARKED ESSAY AGN.
and i really wonder how can she mark all of our essays till 4am in the morning with only a "seen" & a tick on the front page.

either she marks for the whole cohort of j2s. (no she doesnt)
or she's plain slow as a turtle.

enlighten me? :)

HAHAH. damn sarcastic.
but ya, i rly doubt she flips the pages and read thru them anyw.

WHAT A TOTAL WASTE OF MY TIME.
i rather let alby mark mine la.
wth.

im alrdy thinking abt post A's activities btw.... :D
k, mum's calling.

BYE!

2008-07-09T09:58:00.000-07:00

91 words

Speedtest

THIS THG IS ADDICTIVE.
IM SRY SAM.
I CANT HELP IT. lol. :D

2008-07-08T08:08:00.000-07:00

CYCLING WITH 2404! (:

wonder why i cant upload the rest of the pics? :/

for more pics, visit http://the6smarties.blogspot.com

wonder why everybody looked so happy tht day. LOL.

esp philip. hahaha.

i think the pictures made my day today!

feels damn happy and -floaty- aft looking at them. (:

cycling was funny.

half the east coast park was raining, the other half was sunny.

but me & pee were blur & went to the opposite side from the others.

THE SUNNY SIDE K. :D

ti gong po pi us man.

& jerico fell, and everybody else got stranded at carls' jr.

lol. but the both of us continued cycling.

get well soon jerico! (:

HAIYA, the first grp pic we took was quite nice

with everybody's hair flying and looking happy.

SEE IT AT THE BLOG!

we went on monday.

(yaya, & conveniently forgot abt the hw to do. lol.)
IT WAS YOUTH DAY WHT!

day started off lazy but we got more energetic aftwards.

feels nice to be hanging out with them! :D

okay, if i dont go off to mug econs nw,

tmr alby will slaughter me.

SEEYOU PEOPLE!

I LOVE 2404.

(to the girl/boyf who stepped on the plastic & fell, get well soon! : p)

2008-07-05T09:04:00.000-07:00

to all the people who cared:
THANKS! (:

just felt tht my results is seriously smthg to be sad abt.
because its... really shitty.
& i think im still sad abt it.......

but i wont give up!

i will try my best for chem for just 2 more times.
i will overcome my phobia for maths for just 2 more times.
i will "die die also pass econs" with flying colours for just 2 more times.
i will work hard to ace physics for just 2 more times.

like wht mytwin said:
it will be stupid to give up since we've worked hard for 17 years and 1 more year doesnt make much of a difference.

(nods)

2008-07-03T23:34:00.000-07:00

)':

i swear i was shocked when i gt back my phy ppr.
I REALLY STUDIED HARD FOR IT LIAO LA.
(okayyy, its alrdy the hardest out of all the subj. i chose to give up on maths/chem for phy & econs.)
& ya, i failed it too.
to put it in a nicer way, its one of the higher fails in the class.
no doubt the ppr was hard & only 4 passed with E in my class.

BUT.

............................
(maybe i shld've hv spent my time studying for maths & chem instead.)

OFF FOR LUNCH.
my leg hurts for no particular reason. damn.

what a bad day.

2008-07-03T05:09:00.000-07:00

DAMN.
nw i rly think im qt dumb.

today is a bad day!
i gt back the other half of econs in the morning & it was worse than i expected it to be/not as gd as i expected it to be.
so i didnt gt my very first pass in tht subj la.
which i was qt hopeful abt.

zzz.

then when i rly forgot abt the results alrdy,
we got back maths ppr.
ppr 1 la.
this is frigging sad!.
AAH. shit results. ... ...
shit means U.
dont think ppr2 is enough to salvage it anyw.
i didnt thought i wld fail so badly.
vectors is my enemy frm today onwards. -.-

RGT.
im so gg to mug my ass off frm today onwards.
somehow i felt that my hardwork dont seem to pay off, esp in econs.
hopefully if i start nw, i'll see daylight for prelims.

CCA-WISE:
we are nt done with the damn proj
& there's wrong stuff with the attendance but i submitted it alrdy.
HAIYA.

shit rly happens.

BUT I WONT GIVE UP! (i hope)
dont succumb to stress rachel. :/

2008-06-28T06:38:00.000-07:00

HAHAH.

i think im in love with TheFaceShop. :)
i bought the seaweed tube mask which i havent tried before.
& my skin rly feels smoother and the pores smaller aft one try?!
i cant believe it as well. lollll.

2008-06-27T09:50:00.000-07:00

MIDS HV ENDED!
and so hv my life.

hahah. just kidding. (:
MAYBE my life will end if i get bk the results but ohwell.
for nw, i guess its time to slackkk!

whether or nt i worry for the results nw or enjoy myself before it comes,
i think i'll still be demoralized aft tht.
SO ENJOY NW LA RGT.

the mids:
1) it was horrendous.

2) i didnt sit for chem ppr cause i fell sick. which i think was a blessing in disguise. HAHAH. because i've studied miserably little for it & the ppr was tough according to others if you hvnt studied enough. (if you're wondering wht is little, little means 3 chapters out of the whole syllabus)

3) i finally managed to finish writing for an econs ppr. but it was case study la. so ya. lol. i cant finish my essay ppr as usual.

4) thought tht i did my best so far in this mid's econs case study. er, considering the fact tht i've been getting U for all econs stuff since J1. (but i rly flunked essay lol.)

5) nvr got to rly finish all other papers. except GP la. lol.

6) i hope i can at least pass 1 subj out of the 3 i've taken. -.- (excluding GP) praying very hard.

7) MY CALCULATOR SPOILED DURING MATHS PPR! WTH. lol. i was damn violent to it but i think nobody realised because everyone was rushing. its nt GC but im qt dependent on the normal one...........

8) IM TOTALLY SICK OF MIDS. zzz.

MOVING ON.

wht i did today:
1) ended mids!!

2) went Kbox

3) shopped ard town area.

4) bought a book, biscuits & chocolate-coated strawberries.

5) ate Han's for dinner. (foood makes me happy. :D)

6) had Kbox lunch (japanese curry chicken) which i think was nt bad, or maybe its because i was rly hungry alrdy. hahaha.

7) enjoyed myself because i dont hv to think! (sounds weird but yaaaaa, mentally tired k)

:D

im suddenly very excited/interested in TheFaceShop's masks. lol. nt tht i wasnt in the past but gt this craving coming up. thought their products are very well packaged & they used fresh & healthy ingredients like fruits and stuff which rly attracts me. or at least i think they do la.

SHALL RESTOCK!

i saw her............

2008-06-18T20:55:00.000-07:00

PRE-MIDYR SYNDROME:

I
FEEL
DUMB.

like, rly. ._.
havent seen anybody slower/much slower than me.
OHWELL.

to wilson: DONT DENY! hahah. you rly look like a chipmunk. :D
to chloe: damnnn, tio suan agn. lol.

2008-06-14T07:40:00.000-07:00

RACH IS SO DEAD FOR MIDS.

NVR BEEN SO DEAD BEFORE.
WORST THAN PROMOS. -.-''

anyw, CHIPMUNK TAGGED ME.
lol.

http://willylim.blogspot.com

"Height: 177cm =D"

RIGHT.
CHIP,
TRYING TO FLAUNT YR TALL-NESS TO ME ONLY.
lol.

Tag 8 people to do this.
Those who have been tagged must do this quiz and state the person who tagged them.
They are not to tag those who had tagged them and have to continue this tagging thing by tagging others.

(some of the qns are repeated from previous blogquiz tht i did. so im gg to delete it la.)

J. What do you want most in life?
HAPPINESS. seriously. lol.

N. what kind of person do you think that person who tag you is?
(this qn is repeated but ya)
ONE THT LOOKS LIKE A CHIPMUNK? =D
im rly nt kidding.

O. If you could ask that person for a request and that person will return it, what will it be?
"the person will return it?"
ER BUT ANYW, I WANT HIM TO GIVE ME SOME OF HIS HEIGHT? LOL.
THIS IS DAMN IMPT.

T. If you played a prank on someone and they fall for it, what will you do?
wahlao, i'll most likely be the one tht's pranked on.
then in tht case, i'll try my best to do the same trick on another person.
we'll all be dumb tgt! :)

im too nice to prank others. :D

END

ppl i shall tag
1 to 5) smarties
6) pu baobao
7 to 9) che ven sam

HAH.
mids is haunting me.

IM TOTALLY BURNT.
NVR BEEN SO BURNT BEFORE EITHER. :/
CHECK http://the6smarties.blogspot.com if you are kaypoh. :D

2008-06-11T07:34:00.000-07:00

http://astro.tom.com/2008-06-11/0043/21977862.html

你有男生缘还是女生缘

测试结果:

你是天生的交际家，从小孩到七八十岁的老人，不分男女都可以和他们相处得很好，真是个人见人爱的可人儿。在男人眼中，你也是可很有人缘、反应快、聪慧的小魔女，不由得会被你的魔力所迷惑，甚至为你赴汤蹈火也在所不惜，周遭永远围绕着一大堆追求者。在女人眼中，你是个机灵、懂事、有能力的人，和你在一起总有股莫名的亲切感，不知不觉就和你成为好朋友，不防就运用这种优点去从事一些工作，相信必有一番成就

LOL.

i dont even knw im so gd.

._.

MIDYRS?
SHOOT ME! :/

2008-06-10T07:11:00.000-07:00

AIRPORT! :)

shall upload other photos nxt time. dno why the blogger is working nw. lol.

I HATE THE EXAMS!

im very very behind time,

but its not like im doing anythg abt it.

SAVE ME.

(in case you're wondering wht i was doing these days without being on MSN, i was on the comp. just tht i didnt sign in. :/ AH. the fanfics are rly interesting smtimes you knw..)

PAST PEEKTURES! :)

CLIQUE! :)

PHOTOG CAMP: GIRLS

PHOTOG CAMP: JIAMIN & ME

LAST PHOTOG OUTING:
POLLYBAO JOSEPHINE & ME.

(i secretly think the yellow umbrella is cool.)

2008-06-05T09:03:00.000-07:00

HELP THE WHALES! :)

http://www.send-a-whale.com/sendawhale/landing.php?source=GP_WEB

i've created my whale alrdy.

A) people who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs.

B) tag 8 people to do this quiz & those who are tagged cannot refuse. these people must state who they were tagged by & cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. continue this game by sending it to other people.

#1 if your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
---> :'( hahah.

#2 if you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
---> a very very happy fairytale life. (copied samantha) anyw, got reminded of Enchanted's prince and the princess. (forgot her name thou) loved how she dropped from the tree directly to the prince's horse! :)

then agn, fairytale is impossible.
maybe for me to hv a fairytale life FOR ONE DAY with my future boyfriend? (im assuming LOL)

(:

#3 what will your dream wedding be like?

---> fairytale. :D (AH YES, copied samantha's agn)

#4 are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?
--->YES. i realised i've always been confused abt my future. lol.

#5 what's your ideal lover like?
---> the louis koo in Gan Cai Lie Huo? HAHAH.

#6 which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
---> being loved by someone is more blessed la.

#7 How long do you intend to wait for someone u really love?
---> a little less than forever, for the right one! :)

#8 if the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
---> keeping thgs frm him & i'll be glad if he's happy. (AHA, so cliche. lol. but true la. (:)

#9 is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
---> YES. like !*(%#(%$)#. i'll be okay if there's no A's thou. :\

#10 is being tagged fun?
---> im neutral to this. lol.

#11 how do you see yourself in ten years time?
---> i dno. BUT THEN, i hope i'll be happy with a nice boyf (husband?), rich with pretty clothes, dolling myself up, pretty much enjoying my life doing wht i really want to do.

like.. volunteering, opening a candy shop/bakery (HAHAH) or some DIY stuffs? lol.

#12 who are currently the most important people to you?
---> parents, Smarties, & other close friends! :D

#13 what kind of person do you think the one who tagged you is?
---> HMM. fellow saggi. lol. = optimistic! cheery & so laughable (you knw wht i mean) . :D :D :D

#14 would you rather be single & rich or married but poor?
---> married but poor! definitely. lol. but my husband must be rly the right guy.

#15 what's the first thing you do every morning?
---> "5 more mins k!" lol.

#16 would you give all in a relationship?
---> yeah.

#17 if you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
---> the one tht i feel most relaxed with.

#18 what type of friends do you like?
---> faithful. (-nods. copied agn lol.)

#19 what type of friends do you dislike?
---> those ppl tht i truly dislike usually wont be my friends. lol.

COMPLETED. :)

PEOPLE WHO ARE TAGGED:
SMARTIES! (HAHAH, too bad. blog on smarties blog k)
MISS BAO. PU! :D
jiamin? LOL. (im curious abt yr ans!)

off.

(btw, i suddenly hv a liking for Xiao Gui! shall support him by buying his book. (: )

2008-05-27T08:41:00.000-07:00

"COME ONNNN RACH!"

i shld seriously
stop slacking.

I was supposed to be doing my tuition hw today.
and thou i did do other constructive stuffs today like FINISHING NYAA.
(WAHOOOOO MANZXZ! the damn nyaa is finally done k! :D)

i actually went for family breakfast at The Prata Place!
okaaaay, so the potatoes are seriously the Yummiest ones i've ever eaten.
but it gives me the guilt when i came bk home cause i slept soon aft.

FOR 3 DAMN HOURS.

like (@#)@$()%#)%(#.

lol.
and i rotted, slacked, watched tv aft tht.
and nw im still blogging?!

...

kkkkk, i shld stop complaining.
shall get down to work!
*self motivation in progress soon*

GORACHELTAN! :)

wahlao eh, i rly wonder why the
big words appeal to me so much! :x

2008-05-25T09:05:00.000-07:00

*EDIT:

VISIT:
http://the6smarties.blogspot.com/

ITS THE HOLIDAYS! :)

aft close to 5mths of j2, the sleepless nights doing work & mugging, i've come to

惜福

more. hahah. (just like wht samantha always say)

been feeling rly relaxed aft like 2 days of 'holidays'.
like, there's nthg on yr mind when you lie on the bed before slping.
dont hv to recall wht you've memorised before tht.
whoa. feel so much better la.

nt tht i was slacking away thou.
had 2 tuitions today k!
(FYI: i take tuition as some sort of mugging too. lol.)

shall list some of the gd things for the holidays:

1) I CAN FINALLY WATCH SHAO NIAN YANG JIA JIANG PEACEFULLY. :D !!
(i always had to mug or rush last minute work on sunday nights la. ever since the show started, i cldnt watch the 2hr show/weekend without multitasking.)

2) SHOPPING TIME!!
hahah. everywhere there's sales! ah. lol. rly gg crazy. diva, fox, mphosis, prettyfit.
but then i figured out tht im spending a lot just on tuition each mth & my family isnt exactly rich enough to afford so many thgs, so i shall only buy wht i need.

which is shoes & bags.
i'll forgo wallet & clothes first.
this still doesnt sound very thifty BUT YA.
(:

3) more time to study! :)
whoa, seriously hate the last minute mugging tht i always end up doing. 16+years alrdy and i still dont hv gd study habits.

i shall change myself this holidays.
i shall do the hw at the start of the h0lidays so i can hv more time to slack aftwards. :D !

i gt this feeling the list will go on & on.
BUT ITS THE HOLIDAYYYYS! (:
nvr felt so happy for june holidays before. lol.

anyw, smthg funny just nw during econs tuition.
we're talking abt elasticity.
& it was on coke and pepsi.

alby (the teacher): so.. for example, if pepsi price rise, there will be a rise in the qty demanded for coke right?

samantha: *nods*

rachel (me): NOOOOOO. *raises hand up* if im a loyal fan of pepsi, it wont change.

er, dont ask me why i did/thought of tht.
but i think the scene is damn funny.
considering the fact tht samantha laughed till her face became super red.

LOL.

i went for vj harmoc concert ytd night.
ah, it was great! :D
anyw, compared to my jc, the sch building and facilities seriously nicer la.
but i dont regret my choice thou.
its a lot nearer aft all.

NICE CONCERT LA, NGSHULING! :)

ohya, we went to visit arkar greatgrandfather on friday.
get well soon k!
but dont get fattt. :D

EHH, wth.
i still cant post pics. :(
another time then!

off to continue tv! (: (: (:

2008-05-13T06:40:00.000-07:00

TSK.

all of a sudden, (okay, maybe not very suddenly)

i feel very stupid.

will get back chem test tmr & only 9 passed in the class.
out of which, the teacher said 3 are the guys.
so tht leaves 6 girls, and out of the 6 girls, obviously 1 will be r- - -.
then okay, i think car will pass (dont worry! my gut feeling. :) )
plus ven & sam.

THT LEAVES 2 SLOTS.
& there's still 14 girls.

MY PROBABILITY OF PASSING IS ONLY LIKE 1/7. -.-''

but tht's nt the pt. the pt is, i alrdy got the tips for the test.
and i actually wrote the correct answers, and changing it to smthg else.
ended up totally off track.

GOSH.
HOW stupid CAN I GET LA.

damn sian.
i keep telling myself to face the fact tht i will fail tmr.
and i thought i alrdy gt the mood to accept it.
but i think it'll always be otherwise tmr.

thou its dumb since its nt a very big exam or wht,
guess smtimes along the way of sch life will hv this kind of feeling la.

OHWELL.

on a sidenote, i rly rly rly cant wait for junehols to come! (:
thou it'll mean MORE studying,
i get to catch up with THE PEOPLE!

hahah, been a long time since the stjohn girls went out together.
shld be qt fun to go for vj harmoc concert with them then. :D

RACHEL WILL MAKE IT FOR A'S!

off to study chemspa!

2008-05-11T09:23:00.000-07:00

surprisingly i can finally see the font table. (:

anyw, im rly supposed to be mugging for econs nw & all.
midyears in 2 weeks time.

:(

rly wanted to upload many of the new photos,
but dno why still cant.
ohwell.
dumb computer.
shall do it another day then.

i. must. nt. think. abt. anythg. else.
and. mug.

GO RACH GO!

2008-04-26T09:53:00.001-07:00

TESTING 1 2 3

okay, so my blogger is screwed up alrdy. lol. the box for you to change yr text colour, font, font size &

TO UPLOAD PICTURES

IS GONE.

& im hving qt some difficulties trying to blog a proper post with nice font and everythg. hahah.

CURRENTLY:

im flooded, RLY FLOODED with work from sch & cca.
i just had my annual Photog Camp, which i wanted to post pictures of it to my blog.
i am still rushing my work now.
feeling qt sinful because i slacked in the morning & afternoon.

lol. im rly qt fed up by the fact tht i wont stop feeling guilty because i slacked until probably the end of the year. hahah.

SO IRRITATING!

and im feeling more & more stressed up.
and i still vaguely rmb what MissNew said at the starting of the year.
she said smthg like by term 2, all the j2s will start to feel the stress coming up and some will just "snap" & cant take it anymore.

so i start asking myself am i gg to be those tht cannot take it alrdy people?

AH.

im trying very hard to strive on thou.
I MUST GET GOOD RESULTS IF NT I'LL JUST DIE AND WITHER AND AND. I DNO.

LOL.

MINI PIECE OF GOOD NEWS:
panties & cap's birthdays are coming! (;

2008-04-13T09:30:00.000-07:00

I WANT TO TURN BACK TIME. ):

okay, so im feeling super stressed out nw. & i still hv a lot of work to do by tonight. thanks to my long afternoon nap just nw. even before the week begins, i've this feeling tht it'll be a super crazy week.

with photogcamp on friday, sports heats stuff to be done (which also means i've to stay in school till the sky becomes dark and i'll reach home being too tired to do anythg), chem test on tuesday, prepare pictures for photogcomp, do up some of the NYAA stuff, discuss J2 PDG phototaking stuff. AND ALL THE REST OF THE HOMEWORK.

OHGOSH.

its rly crazily a lot isnt it??

HELP.

today, i felt it agn. just realised tht its april alrdy. been so long since __________.
but i've made a choice, & im trying very very very hard not to regret it. miserable maybe? but rachel, its a choice tht you've made.

RLY, ITS THE TIME THT IM DOWN THT THE FEELING ALWAYS COMES BACK.

always, i'll think about how everything will change if time can turn back. (obviously it cant, but ya.) will i be happier if i hadnt chose to go to JC.

will i be happier if i ___________.

will i be happier if we __________ ?

DAMN.
its like, i've ran out of words to describe hw i feel nw.

你幸福过吗?

我想你应该很幸福.

2008-04-02T09:03:00.000-07:00

SAMANTHA VENETTA & OTHERS! (:

you all rly shld go visit these:

jollyville.livejournal.com.

sunnysidecup.livejournal.com

buttercupwheels.livejournal.com

WE (CHERYL & ME) ARE OFFICIALLY ADDICTED TO ONLINE SHOPPING!

(;

(so anyw, im hving my 2.4run tmr. & i rly think im gg to die down there.)

DAMN.

plus i failed my chem test which i think is nt hard. :\

but agogo's birthday is coming! :D

i think im crazy,
but i seriously think li nan xing reminds me of potato.

2008-03-11T08:00:00.000-07:00

HI PEOPLE.

yes, my computer is finally okay.
been rly busy with J2 work.
but managed to catch The Leap Years today.

a quote to share! (:

im telling this to myself too.

things change, people change.

but

LIFE
GOES
ON.

2008-02-18T06:09:00.000-08:00

...............

my computer is seriously getting from bad to worse. nw i cant even see the main toolbar (whatever its called) at the bottom of every computer screen. which also means i cant shut my computer down. & all the icons on the desktop disappears.

wanted to ask for help from people but seems like everybody is so busy with j2.

didnt want to bother anybody somemore.

ANY KIND SOUL IS FREE ENOUGH?

.......................

so i dont think i'll update any time sooner.

j2's workpile is horrendous.

ANYW, EVERYBODY (THOSE WHO HAVEN'T) SHLD RLY GO LISTEN TO..

JENNY (:

by the click five.

think im slow

but its super nice!

&! the happiest thg today:

i went to watch KUNGFU DUNK.

im seriously gg to buy the dvd.

shuai ge everywhere.

i really think jay is cute with tht hairstyle.

:P

KUNGFUDUNK + JENNY + NO ECONS = A FINE DAY FOR RACHEL

nw tht's rare okay.

YES. I LOVE BIG WORDS.

GO RACH.
BYE.

"smtimes, i rly want to.."

2008-01-19T08:24:00.000-08:00

张韶涵 - 亲爱的那不是爱情

教室里那台风琴叮咚叮咚叮咛

像你告白的声音动作一直很轻

微笑看你送完信转身离开的背影

喜欢你字迹清秀的关心

那温热的牛奶瓶在我手中握紧

有你在的地方我总感觉很窝心

日子像旋转木马在脑海里转不停

出现那些你对我好的场景

你说过牵了手就算约定

但亲爱的那并不是爱情

就像来不及许愿的流星

再怎么美丽也只能是曾经

太美的承诺因为太年轻

但亲爱的那并不是爱情

就像是精灵住错了森林

那爱情错的很透明

DAMN NICE.

2008-01-15T07:41:00.001-08:00

smtimes i wonder how unlucky i can be..

2008-01-14T08:38:00.001-08:00

WHY!

2007-12-18T09:06:00.000-08:00

here's a very short post.
i cldnt blog the other day again.
somehow there's smthg wrong with my computer & blogger. (as usual)

anyw, a huge note to myself.

TOLERANCE, RACH.
tolerance!
tolerance!
tolerance!
tolerance!

okay. the word 'tolerance' seems weird to me nw.

AH.
DAMN.

i wanted to post some pics
& blogger cldnt work for me again.
dont you think this font looks nicer in bigger size?

off.

2007-12-10T08:00:00.000-08:00

i've got this urge to type Like This Tonight.

I've been going to the airport to do my homework for the past 2 days.
& no, im not a mugger or what when you're reading the previous sentence.

I just started the day before.
And im starting to panick about my studies.
Like how November is gone just like tht when i promised myself to really make full use of the holidays to catch up on my chemistry & econs.

:\

My chemistry & econs are like one of the last few in class. (okay, chemistry is really the bottomeeest of the bottom alrdy. im not kidding.)

Guess i really played too much alrdy?
Since i didnt do well for Promos in the first place.
& im just lucky to scrape through the criteria.

OHWELL.

Enough of all these boring studies stuff.
I told myself to buck up the day before.
& i am gg to do tht. :D

I think its weird but i really like the way it is
when i have this determination to do wht i want to do.
Like im proud of myself or smthg along tht line.
Hahah.
Hope i'll not fail myself this time though.

The airport trips was kinda fun! Especially with fun people ard. Erhem, the Popis. (:
I think im swagu but i didnt visit the different areas of the airport before this mugging sessions.
Lol.
& the most impt thg, THE FOOD.
Ah, its YUMMYYY.

We ate Chicken Don, Homemade Noodles & Japanese Curry Beef Rice for dinner just nw.

http://www.exoticamaddness.blogspot.com/ for more pictures.

Hahah.
Good food always makes me happier.
>:D

But i did really little today.
4 miserable maths questions.
Its weird tht i didnt really slack or wht thruout the thg.
& yet i only did so little.

-.-''

SMTHG FUNNY.
We met strange people in BK while mugging.

There's this weird uncle who came towards us & stare at us (we looked at him back of course).
And he took with him 1 Drink + 10 cups of ice water.
I dno who in the right mind will order tht.
He sat near us and started talking to us.
I didnt really bother him and continued my maths while the Popis talked.

He started with " are you all from hwachong...?"
NO. >.>
And it continued to "which jc are you all from? nanyang?"

Agogo: Erm, no. Innova.
Uncle: HUH?
Agogo: INNOVA (louder)
Uncle: oh, nvr heard before. where is it? a new jc?
Agogo: yes. woodlands.

And it suddenly jumped to

Uncle: Anderson JC? (when i looked at him)

Its really weird tht he knows which JC im from when im wearing my jacket from the front.
So my badge and uniform colour are all covered.
Maybe thts why he came so near to us before tht. -.-

JUST LIKE A CHI KO PEK LA.

But he left after a while.
Then we saw this strange group of people sitting beside us.
There's this fierce guy sitting nearest to me and we thought he's selling illegal cigarettes to the people.
We saw many cigarette boxes on the table and some ICs and money.

He has tattoos on his hand & he wears a big metal earring? :\

We looked damn funny trying to look at him when he's not looking at our side.
Think he noticed it & he started looking at us.
HAHAH.
But we realised he's actually a
POLICEMAN.
Those kind of bian (4) yi (4) police.
& they're confiscating and collecting money from the people who brought the cigarettes back to Sg.

He really got this huai (4) ren (2) lian (3) to me la.
Like some familiar thief in TV shows.
No wonder he's on tht particular duty.
We suspect he's those kind of police sneaking into the flights spotting people with illegal stuffs.
Damn cool.

We ended up nua-ing at Terminal 3 aft our dinner.
Refused to move away from the seats!
The seats are so comfortable!

& i had fun at their toilets!
Clean & High tech.
HAHAH.

But i really hate the travelling to the airport.
The 858 bus ride is long for me. :\
Since i tend to get Bus-sick smtimes??
The ride home is better since me and Agogo always end up sleeping through it.

Nice experience though! :D

AND OHYESSS.

THANKS TO ALL WHO RMBED 8TH DEC! (: (:

many many peopleee.

Anyway, some random thoughts again.
I just felt like people change, things change.
& sometimes wht you think is very impt to you nw,
may seem less of imptance aft a while.
Just like wht im feeling nw.

So Kan Kai Yi Dian is the way.

2007-12-04T07:44:00.000-08:00

(sorry, i dont knw how come my spacings doesnt appear.)

my blogger was hving problems yesterday.
so i shall blog abt today & yesterday together.

03nov07.

was an early birthday celebration for me & cherylsocks. :D
but it seems like my most unlucky day of the year for nw.

-__________-

it was a damn funny, weird, unusual, but still enjoyable day for all of smarties i guess. (:
or at least for me it was.
& i totally forgot abt how unlucky i was aft a while of hanging out with my favs.

hahah. we went to pee's hse to meet up first.
& yes, our tradition of a surprise for every of our birthdays!
they planned this travelling game for us
& we're supposed to travel around Singapore to buy food back.

anyw, i got this feeling they want the food themselves too.
LOL.

& they include:
munchy donuts
egg beancurd (from chompchomp)
rojak (one of their current cravings?!)
pingkee popiah (angmokio)
bedok seng siong's bottle of 7-up. (we're at serangoon north)
ikea's hotdog buns (queensway?!)

& a budget of $18 for these plus a 3hr limit.
they really want us to die travelling. HAHAH.

did we finish the game?

NO WE DIDNT.
BECAUSE WE DIDNT EVEN START IT.
HAHAH!

you may ask why. (note: my unlucky streak is starting)
the moment me & cheryl went downstairs to take a bus to bedok,
i realise i cldnt find my ezlink card.

LOL!

we searched everywhere for it la.
emptied my bag
combed pee's hse
& even the way to the bus stop.

in the end, we thought i most probably dropped it
on the bus 74 tht i took to her hse before everythg.

(EVERYONE! THE BUS 74 NO. IS 1943Z -.-'')

DAMN STUPID LA.
& YA, MY POOH CARD COVER WAS GONE TOO.
AH.
SAMANTHA, BUY ONE FOR ME AGAIN FRM HOUGANG CAN? (:

so we werent in the mood for any games
& we went to hougang interchange to report the loss.
damn tht particular bus driver.
didnt even help & laughed at us.
he said smthg like we are surely going shopping & lost the card halfway thru.

then cafe cartel for lunch.
MMM YUM.
they bought birthday cake for us.
though its kinda obvious. HAHAH.
the cake is made of munchy donuts? lol.

but still as yummy.
with a candle! WOOH.

:D

then we wanted to go pee's hse to continue nua-ing. lol.
we board the bus & were happily taking some pictures

when...

THE BACK DOOR OF THE BUS CLDNT CLOSE.
& THE BUS DRIVER HAD TO STOP THE BUS BY THE ROAD.
YES, THE BUS BROKE DOWN.
WHEN WE'RE ONLY HALFWAY TO HER HSE.

#%*(@*$()@#

lol. wahlao, how suay.
but we got a complimentary ticket la, for 1 free bus ride.
so we chose to walk back.

WALK.

hahah. the journey is nt very short okay.
but still fun to walk with them.
ah. (:

& we rewatched secret plus baifenbai & the champion.
DAMN NICE. lol.

OHYES, they bought me this clutch bag for present.
LOVE IT VERY MUCH.

THANKS SMARTS! :D

04nov07

mmm. i went to watch enchanted with bao & agogo.

the show is super nice!
though i thought the male lead was a little old for the princess at first. lol.
ah, i felt a little dreamy aft the show la.
like how good it'll be to live tht kind of life. :D

bytheway, we took shaker fries into the cinema.
YUM x 3!

"i've been dreaming of a true love's kiss..."

LOL!

bao was addicted to the song & sang while we were walking on the streets.
she almost danced. HAHAH.

ah. then we went to walk ard cineleisure & fareast.
bought a tee.
but bao paid for most of it.
as my present.
WOOH.

THANKS BAO! :D

my feet ached aft the day.
aye, lao le. haha.

to bao & agogo, have fun in genting! (:

& I STILL CANNOT FIND MY EZLINK CARD LA.
):

错过，了

2007-11-25T07:22:00.000-08:00

HELLO BLOG.

26nov: HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHERYL THE SOCKSY! (: (:

smtimes i wonder why my computer is always down with funny problems.
this time was a flickering and then blackout monitor.
it's been sent for repair and i've got a temporary monitor to use for the time being.
& this temporary one is WEIRD.
the screen is super bright till originally black colour can become red on the screen.
its almost like glowing alrdy. -.-''

but its soundless/cant produce sound/you get wht i mean.
its a silent monitor. AH.
which also means i cant listen to any songs, cant watch any videos.
there goes my gong zhu xiao mei & er zuo ju zhi wen & why why love.

DAMN.

recently, i've to think abt a lot different, different stuffs.
like work, studies (i haven't started la, in case you're wondering. lol.), cca, outings.
then i realise this is more than what i go through during school time.
at least during sch time, i dont hv to brood abt what to do for the next few days since its all planned.

then ytd, i quit the sakae job (not like i've started. HAHAH) but i still hv the part time tuition one.
for a moment i thought my messy life & all the troubles have cleared up a little
& i was about to blog saying smthg like maybe things werent so bad afterall,

then i realise there's still some other things left for me to think about, to resolve, to do smthg abt.
they're always there.

but i guess i tend to run away from certain problems tht i face
& i kind of hate tht.
hating tht kind of me.
OHWELL. :\

maybe its because im sick tht i tend to be more pessimistic than usual?
ayeee i dno.
must be the cough syrup thts making me talk nonsense. -.-''

so tmr im going to ralph & joan's hse to tuition them.
i really hope i dont go crazy halfway & start shouting. (LOL?)
especially since im sick. hahah.
but i realise its really VERY DIFFICULT to teach someone who doesnt pay much attention to you.
more so if they dont understand what you're saying
& you just dont know how to tell them anymore.

but the worst is tht you just forgot what you've learnt and cant teach them the right stuffs.

think i've learnt to appreciate my teachers a lil' bit more.

I MUST SURVIVE TMR .
YES I WILL.

有时侯
很想说

可是最后还是说不出口

2007-11-11T07:41:00.000-08:00

I BAKED COOKIES TODAY. (:

dont get shocked. hahah.
okay la, i got my mum's help. lol.

i always liked to bake and do diy stuffs.
some of which turned out to be disastrous at times. hahah.

& i told myself this time i wld at least bake once in the holidays to satisfy myself.

PICTURE TIME THEN.

THE COOKIE MIX

EGG

MY FIRST BATCH OF COOKIE (which is kind of burnt)

MY SECOND BATCH (IMPROVED!) (:

ALL THE COOKIES LEFT TO COOL

KEPT INTO CONTAINER

& MORE.

i went to collect my jay album.
& as usual, im addicted to it!

没有地球，太阳还是会绕.

彩虹

2007-11-05T08:17:00.000-08:00

my computer is still as crazy as ever.

my msn is down. & its weird tht it can only function normally when i changed my status to 'appearing offline'. whenever i go online/away/busy/ (you get it), the computer will restart itself automatically. smtimes i find it weird tht i always encounter funny computer problems like this.

-.-''

so for those who thought i became a nerd like 8) & mug even during the holidays,

NOPE I DIDNT. im online almost everyday as usual, just tht i cant go "online".

its the holidays & my computer is down. AH. i feel like killing it. why cldnt it spoil during the promo's period or smthg. HOLIDAYS YOU KNW. :\

just felt the urge to blog again. maybe because my nights now are quieter. (without msn and stuff like tht) it kind of leaves me some quiet-me-time to think.

not tht i love to think, but i always find myself doing so. lol.

& today, i was thinking...

maybe if time could turn back,
many stuffs would be changed.
& it wld be so much different from nw.
there's really many many of such if-only-it-can-be-changed stuffs for me.

things like friendship. maybe? shall not list them down.

this thought will always come to my mind once in a blue moon.
& i always end up feeling yi(2) han(4) about some stuffs.
sigh.

thought no.2.

i went to dig for my meg cabot book 'size 12 is not fat' just nw since i've go nthg to do and it kind of reminded me abt this.

i was always hesitant abt reading meg cabot books because i always felt tht ppl will think tht its childish of me to be still reading such books at my age. this feeling gets stronger as i turn older. (LOL?)

hahah. maybe its really silly of me. -.-''

i love reading sometimes! eh, quite random?

its 12.30am. lol. there's econs lecture tmr.
so im off.
though i dont think i will go off to sleep aft this. HAHA.

2007-10-28T08:37:00.000-07:00

computer's crazy again. :\

anyw, i take like more half an hour just to attach and send cheryl one pathetic email.
car, if you see this, so sorry for the wait!
and its still in the loading mode nw.

my msn is down too.
since yesterday night.

im not talking to anybody now
and i suddenly had the urge to blog.
today was a slow and peaceful day.
& strangely, im not feeling lonely or what.
and i actually like the way things are at this moment.
slow & quiet.
just listening to some music and waiting for the pw stuffs to load.

it feels like im the only one living in my own world.
but it feels nice smtimes. (:
not thinking or brooding too much about stuffs.

savouring the moment.

(I WENT TO PRE-ORDER JAY'S ALBUM JUST NW & IT MAKES ME HIGH!)

2007-10-17T06:03:00.000-07:00

MIRACLE.

hahah. i managed to pass my maths. (: (:
though its a low pass.
and i didnt get fantastic results.
other than the 2h2 passes, i failed the other two.

but still, its a good improvement for me i guess.
since my midyears is shitttt. lol.

i keep telling myself not to be greedy & shld be contented since im able to promote safely.
yea, thts my original aim.

I WILL BUCK UP FOR CHEM & ECONS.
(*note the font size difference. hahah!)

got this feeling tht it'll be a difficult year ahead.
but i'll just have to try harder to overcome it..

(:

2007-10-15T08:08:00.000-07:00

putting studies related stuff aside,
this week has alrdy been bad enough.
& it just gets worse.
one after another.

and im helpless abt everythg.

:\

if i cant promote tmr, i wonder how i'll react and stuff like tht.
if i can promote, i'll only be just meeting the criteria.

maths is really really crucial for me then.
i need tht pass!

like after 16+ years of life, this is the one thing that will change my life so much than all the other stuffs i've experienced.

AHHHH.
I MUST PO PI MYSELF OR SMTHG LIKE THT!

and i think im now into the i-dno-wht-im-talking-abt mode alrdy. my heart will probably thump out before tmr.

saggitarius are supposed to be optimistic then how come im so pessimistic??

maybe i shall go watch gong zhu xiao mei to calm myself down. ITS NICE! i fell in love with zhang shao han and wu zun again. it was wang dong cheng for a while. lol.

okay, plan failed. im still thinking abt the results. they're giving back everything tmr and AH! its gp maths and physics first. the 3 subjects will already determine whether i'll promote or not. dieeee. -.-

i've been asking myself what will i do if i cant promote, and i nvr seem to get the answer. i will always ponder for a long time and nothing comes out of it. poly? continue jc?

some ppl might think im thinking too far but this will be what i'll be facing if i cant meet the criteria tmr.

REALITY.

omg.

i dno if im scaring myself or what. but from the msn, i dont think im the only one thats so worried abt this.

okay, enough abt this. i must really face the results calmly. CALMLY. not being able to promote is not the end of the world yet. (though i think it is!)

AH. FAINT ALRDY LA.

(i re-read my entry and i realise i sounded damn nervous till its quite funny. for a moment, i really wanted to laugh at myself for being so panicky. okay. this. is. dumb. =S)

2007-10-12T07:46:00.000-07:00

不. 开. 心

so many many things to trouble over.

2007-10-09T08:51:00.000-07:00

MWAHAHA.

i think im silly sometimes. after doing the IQ test, it suddenly dawned on me tht i might just promote since im a erhem, universal genius afterall. yeah, dont laugh at me you bananas out there!

-.-''

anyw, i dont think i can blog long entries currently. 'cause my computer screen is mad.

IM PISSED OFF WITH THE SCREEN. WHY MUST IT SPOIL WHEN ITS POST-PROMOS PERIOD!

TO SCREEN: STOP FLICKERING OR I WILL SERIOUSLY KILL YOU. (by the way, i suspect i have bao li qing xiang. lol. i almost kicked the screen. )

*and hey, it really did stop flickering after i typed tht sentence. it sounds dumb but im quite amazed by it la. earlier on, i said im pissed off with the screen and tht my hand is tired after on-ing and off-ing for so many times. then it stopped flickering for a while too.

amazing..

pray PRAY PRAY!
promote PROMOTE PROMOTE!

2007-10-05T08:33:00.000-07:00

PROMOS ARE OVERRRRRRR.

but im too lazy to blog all abt it at the moment. i've been deprived of sleep for so many days. -.-''

anyw, smthg interesting.

FRIENDSTER'S HOROSCOPE FOR TODAY:
Rally together your dearest friends today to do something uproarious and silly.

i went to Settler's with my favourite 2404 ppl and we did many many silly things. lol. (: (: like pressing the service bell. but still, how can the people just ignore us after a while (of pressing the bell) la? HAHAH. we really mean it sometimes.

I NEED TO REPLENISH MY SLEEP. :D

& PRAY really REALLY REALLY HARD THT I'LL PROMOTE SAFELY. :\

2007-09-24T06:15:00.000-07:00

PROMOS STARTING NEXT WEEK.

!

2007-09-16T08:01:00.000-07:00

WAHH.

my msn is spoiled at such a good time. :\

can anybody help me? lol. im using windows live messenger and it asked me to update. so i clicked and it was instaling for a while. but stopped at a particular part. smthg abt registry. in the end, it kind of hanged.

i tried for a few times and the same thg happened. i used system restore and its still the same. i tried the older versions of msn and some problem happened also la. cant log in. ohwell.

whats wrong with my comp?! and it says if i dont update my msn, i cant sign in la. HAHA.

HELP!

just when i need to settle cca stuffs.

PRETTY/HANDSOME PLEASE? (:

I DONT WANT TO BE RETAINNNNNNN. =S

edit:

how can i forget. i did a SUPER SUPER SUPER malu thing just now.

i wanted to ask missgoh (cca teacher) abt attendance stuff. so i smsed a "Miss Goh" from my contact list. then she replied stuffs like "?", "i dont know what you are talking abt" and everythg.

so okay, i thought maybe i got the wrong Miss Goh & she's the Miss Goh from AJ, my first 3 mths phy teacher. i told her "you're a teacher from Aj right? so sorry! i got the wrong person."

GUESS WHT. wrong person again. :S

WA-HA-HA.

who's she then?

she's the anderson sec MISS patricia GOH.

...

i rly got to rename my contacts clearly. -.-